In the last four days I have been to Turkey, then London, then home. First stop Istanbul for a wedding of a client I had never actually met! Held in the most amazing venue built 1001 years ago, Kerem and Carolina looked like the perfect couple. Their happiness was infectious and extremely welcoming.
We visited The Blue Mosque, ashamedly this was the first time I had stepped inside a Mosque and found it to be an emotional moment. There was such a strong sense of peace and yet also power there and it took my breath away. Whilst watching the Muslims praying I admired their total dedication to their faith. Whatever your faith is, it is an amazing feeling to have a total belief in something, even if it is just in yourself.
Sadly, back in London on Tuesday it was time to say goodbye to Rupert. The only good thing about the day was seeing my brother who flew in from San Fransisco and other old friends. In a packed church we sat in almost disbelief that someone so full of life and far too young had gone. Of course, my faith knows that he is fine and it was just was his time, but I felt I was crying for those he had left behind and the shock they all felt. We are all unique but there will be a massive void now Rupert has gone, he really was larger than life.
But as they say, life goes on and when something bad or sad happens, as hard as it is we must try to see a positive. For me it was reminder that every moment of every day is a bonus. My son is 11 today, and it only seems like yesterday I was holding him in my arms for the first time. Last night, I discovered what an amazing philosopher he is at such a tender age. I sat and listened to his thoughts and feelings, and some hilarious anecdotes! We had a special moment. I am a very lucky mother to have such a wonderful boy.
Wednesday 14 May 2008
Sunday 4 May 2008
Farewell Rupert
They say that when a door closes, somewhere a window opens. But this week is has been the other way round. On Thursday, Sandra called me, her voice was full of excitement. I was on the other phone and asked if I could call her back, she said NO!
"I have just had the results of my scan" she told me. I took a deep breath and could hardly believe what I was hearing. Sandra's cancer is 50 percent better and her bones are healing! It was the best news I had heard in such a long time, along side her chemo, her positive thinking and extremely healthy diet were paying off. Now, I am no ,mathematician but if she is 50 percent better and half way through her treatment then...............positive thinking! Miracles have happened before and they will continue to happen, but we have to believe in them.
Sadly as that window was opening and letting in the light, another closed. My brother called from California yesterday to tell me that one of his best friends had died. Rupert and Nick were friends for at least 25 years and it has been a terrible shock to us all. Rupert was a huge personality, capable of dissolving anyone into hysterics, holding court and addressing anyone and everyone as "dude". I have particularly fond memories of him during a week in San Diego leading up to Nick's wedding.
My faith helps me to understand that he has moved on to another place for now and that his soul is in tact. However, my sadness lies in the hurt both my brother and his friends will be feeling at this time, his family and of course his wife and soul mate who only married last year.
Life has so many twists and turns and it is quiet frankly exhausting, its no wonder we get old! But it is also short and we must make the most of each and every second that we are breathing. We must stop and indulge in what we already have, and live each day as if it is our last. It's a tough call, I know, but at least an awareness of that is a start.
Rupert there will always be a large void now, you will be hugely missed dude x
"I have just had the results of my scan" she told me. I took a deep breath and could hardly believe what I was hearing. Sandra's cancer is 50 percent better and her bones are healing! It was the best news I had heard in such a long time, along side her chemo, her positive thinking and extremely healthy diet were paying off. Now, I am no ,mathematician but if she is 50 percent better and half way through her treatment then...............positive thinking! Miracles have happened before and they will continue to happen, but we have to believe in them.
Sadly as that window was opening and letting in the light, another closed. My brother called from California yesterday to tell me that one of his best friends had died. Rupert and Nick were friends for at least 25 years and it has been a terrible shock to us all. Rupert was a huge personality, capable of dissolving anyone into hysterics, holding court and addressing anyone and everyone as "dude". I have particularly fond memories of him during a week in San Diego leading up to Nick's wedding.
My faith helps me to understand that he has moved on to another place for now and that his soul is in tact. However, my sadness lies in the hurt both my brother and his friends will be feeling at this time, his family and of course his wife and soul mate who only married last year.
Life has so many twists and turns and it is quiet frankly exhausting, its no wonder we get old! But it is also short and we must make the most of each and every second that we are breathing. We must stop and indulge in what we already have, and live each day as if it is our last. It's a tough call, I know, but at least an awareness of that is a start.
Rupert there will always be a large void now, you will be hugely missed dude x
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