Finding "it".

Day one of finding "it"

2011-01-07T01:03:00.000-08:00

It's not that I have stopped writing, it's that I have been writing elsewhere recently. That's all I can say really, as it has been all very private and has to stay that way to protect other people. However, it's 2011 and I'm back blogging.

Saying goodbye to 2010 wasn't tricky. Although despite some personal challenges I am now the proud owner of a qualification as a hypnotherapist and NLP practitioner. Allowing my clients even more help when they need it. It has been fascinating studying the mind with my superb teacher Barbara Ford Hammond and I have the learning bug more than ever now.

However, perhaps it's January blues but there is a huge feeling of needing an even greater understanding of my existence on this planet. I have decided go in search of "it" and due to my huge health kick last year, I have no vices to give up, I have decided my resolution will be to gain rather than to subtract from my life.

I am not sure what "it" is yet but I have a pretty good idea of what "it" isn't. It isn't for example just a simple search for happiness, or love even. I think I am experienced enough to know that happiness has many forms for each individual and it's a matter of perspective after all.

What I want is a sense of complete calm and knowing firmly cemented in my soul and although that feeling has drifted in and out I plan to find a way to make it stay for the rest of my life.

A few weeks ago, an advert for a Charity Trek to Nepal and the Himalayas in 2012 screamed at me. I met a wonderful Indian woman once who told me that the Himalayas were the back bone of life. Apparently one day, you are walking through difficult forests where you really cant see where you are going, whilst on another day you can see beautiful calm waters and spectacular views, just like life. I will be visiting temples and remote villages with a group of women and Prof Winston who's charity we are raising money for. I least I say I will as I have made the first step and put my name down.

But that's a long way off and for now apart from working on my fitness more than ever, I have to ask myself where else do I find "it". Perhaps I should put my life in the hands of the Universe?

If you are interested in Sponsoring me on my trek for the Charity Genesis Research Trust please e mail me at lizzie@lizziefalconer.com Thank you

Catching up....

2010-07-12T16:54:00.001-07:00

It's five to one in the morning but quite frankly if I don't write this now perhaps I won't get round to it for another six months. I have no idea where I have been as to not write this, but I have come to the conclusion that sometimes one has to study in life to learn and sometimes we have to take some practical lessons. I think that's what I have been doing actually.....and it's been an inspirational journey.

Our new puppy has been a wonderful addition to the family and I take him out into the fields every morning for a 3 mile hike across some of Suffolk's most beautiful countryside. Perhaps I am just getting old, but I LOVE walking him and the effect it is having on my mind, body and spirit. I often find myself in the middle of a huge open beautiful space thinking how lucky I am to be able to live in such an amazing place. I love watching the seasons change, as so far, I have trudged through snow and rain, picked Spring flowers and of course at the moment during this heatwave I have watched the crops gradually ripen in the sun. I feel fit and healthy and my mind has never been clearer. And I am totally in love......... with our little black Miniature Schnauzer Woody.

The other walk though, the spiritual one, is not for the faint hearted, some find it difficult to understand why I can not simply stop. I have of course come off the path a few times, but it keeps finding me in the end and the draw to continue is extraordinary. I am not sure that even the work I did a couple of years ago has a any relevance to what I am learning and passing on in my teaching today. I have discovered so many new understandings, which have gone on to help other people..thank you universe.

Of course, we must have bad in this world so we can understand what good is. But it's how we approach this that matters. Learning to detach from negative people and those with an ego is tough and can be very painful. It always comes back to the self and I understand that you only attract what you already are into your life. But the ego is, in my opinion, the nearest thing to evil as we know it. A human led by ego is afraid, needs constant approval, is insecure, and will take no regard for others and their feelings.

The human who has let go of their ego, lives from the soul within. The soul knows there is no need to be afraid of being alone, as we are never really alone. The soul does not need approval, as approval from others doesn't exist...after all, who is better than another? The soul trusts in itself and feels at one, it recognises that insecurity is merely a waste of it's energy.

The soul is an extraordinary energy, the ultimate energy, and when that energy is used in the right way then it can heal the body, the mind and your path in life. Those who's lives are spiralling out of control are living from the ego.

I have worked on my energy for some months now and I have watched interesting things take place, I can not emphasise enough the importance of giving your energy away. Life is a series of adventures and moments, some will make you feel wonderful whilst others will be tough. It's how you see them that matters, what you learn from them. Letting go of a situation when it's difficult allows the Law of Karma to take place, let the Universe sort out your problems and just move on. I have found it difficult at times but seeing others wasting their energy on situations is a wonderful reminder that I need to let go too.

I have some wonderful people in my life and I have learnt some wonderful lessons from some not so wonderful situations, now it's time to go and work with those who want to change and be happy and wish goodbye and good luck to those who don't.

Right bed time.....the sun will be rising up above those fields soon and a little dog will be giving me that look!

Cyril Scott

2010-02-08T05:23:00.000-08:00

I have had this recurring dream for a few years now, well actually I have had two recurring dreams but the one I will share with you now strangely has come true...sort of. I dream I am in a big house, I feel it's mine and and each time I dream, I spend time in different room. At the end of each dream I climb a small staircase to an attic and there is a book shelf full of very old books. I seem to know in my dream that if I was to pull out a book and read it, it would give the answer to so much about life. Naturally, every time I am just about to read the book I wake up or am woken up with "Mummy are there any pain au chocolate for breakfast?" So frustrating!

Until the other day, I went into this rather hidden old second hand book shop in our local town and found a book called The Initiate by His Pupil. Written in the 1920's it is the most profound literature I have read for a long time. With a little research I discovered "His Pupil" was the great composer Cyril Scott who looks uncannily like Richard E. Grant in his youth! Scott was an extraordinary man who not only composed some beautiful music but wrote many books on health, and the Occult.

The very mention of the word Occult can send some people into a spin, but this is merely true spiritual enlightenment and has nothing to do with cauldrons and witches. Scott writes so beautifully and despite his rather old English language one soon gets into the flow of it and he makes such sense. Needless to say I am now the proud owner of all his books and am studying rather than reading them and will be sharing with you over the months some of his wonderful knowledge.

Most importantly, I am very excited to have corresponded with his son Desmond Scott who has given me a little more insight into his wonderful father. For those of you who are tired of reading the same old self help books and are ready to move up a level then please read his work.

I have come to realise that the road to enlightenment is a two part journey. Some of it is practical in the shape of soul-mates who come into our lives to help us to learn to be better people, and then the second part in theory. I have spent a while now working on the practical and am enjoying the studying at the moment.

Last year was for my understanding and healing, this year feels productive and full of hope. Scott explains that material wealth holds no energy that will last and make you happy, only your soul carries your true happiness. When you have realised this then you can move forward with conviction.

Peace

Peace in their time

2009-11-12T01:34:00.000-08:00

I have learnt over the last few years on my journey to enlightenment, that if you have a particular dream for something and it's not working out, leave it alone! If a door is shut keep it shut, but if a door is open go through it.....simple! Naturally, like any stubborn female there have been times that I have tried to find the key to open the door or even managed to force it open with a flippin crowbar, but it just swings back and I get my fingers caught or worse!

Lately however, it seems that I am following the right path, doors are opening everywhere and so far I don't feel an annoying draft! As I have mentioned before I have been working with teenagers and twentysomethings.....the youth of today. Never have I experienced anything so rewarding and I feel as if the best is yet to come. Although, I think they get bored of me nagging at them about the rubbish they eat as they munch away in class on stuff that doesn't even look like food. I digress....more importantly they are more enthusiastic than ever to sort out our sorry town.

So despite our long term plan to have a place for them to go,that provides fun and a future for them, first up is giving Sudbury a shake. Once a quaint Suffolk market town, now a place overrun by young people spilling out of pubs and clubs all weekend, causing trouble. Vandalism, drug addiction, alcohol abuse and teenage pregnancy all rising steadily and now......murder. Yes I know we are not exclusive, but Rome and all that.

In 1993, a transendental meditation group on Washington meditated for peace and to lower the crime rate. It worked, just through the power of 4,000 participant's thought process the crime rate was recorded as decreasing by 48%! This is a mind blowing figure and surely can not be ignored? I suggested we try and pursuade Sudbury's population to do the same, bring the place to a grinding halt, even for just for one day.

Positivety is infectious, and organically within an hour we had come up with a cunning plan to produce some kind of Peace Day. Our imagination went nuts as we visualised stages with brilliant bands, amazing speakers and gurus, turning our town for one day into a proper community.

One of the boys said "and perhaps we could all pin our hopes and dreams onto a tree?" His comment blew me away, but it's amazing what happens when you cut down on sugar!

I began in earnest to put the feelers out and the doors are swinging open. Not only did everyone pick up their phone and listen, so far they are all saying yes! Local authorites and the police are being incredibly helpful, my friends and contacts are just the same. Already I have had some very exciting names agree to be on board, details later, and next week I have meetings to pin down the date next year and of course the venues. It has even grown into being a weekend now, a festival.

My 12 year old son said that "we couldn't have peace around us, unless we found peace within first!" and suggested we have a confession cubicle for people to write down their troubles and burn them. And yes it did bring a lump in my throat.

Another group member has no idea how good his writing is, finally started writing his own blog, and I am very proud of him. Well done Matt, please keep it up! The link is below and definitely worth a read.

http://www.matthew-norton.blogspot.com/

I will be keeping updates of this event on here and there will be facebook etc pages available soon, I think I am going to be rather busy for the next 9 months and as ever, brilliantly timed with the arrival of a new member of the family on Sunday.....Woodstock aka Woody.....our new puppy! Funny how we named him after the most amazing festival ever, before this idea was born. But then there is no such thing as coincedence!

Peace and happiness

When we were young

2009-10-14T00:59:00.000-07:00

Where does the time go when you're having fun! One minute I am on my rainy summer holidays and the next we are gathering logs for the fire. It's around this time I defiantly promise myself that I WILL be superwoman this Christmas. I visualise myself with my feet up by December in front of said fire, whilst everyone else stands in queues at More Toys R Driving Us Nuts! So far so good, but family members please don't hold your breath!

My work with my teenagers had progressed and I must confess to loving every minute of it. The group grew, so I split the them into girls and boys. Interestingly, the boys are there without fail every week, which has slightly turned into a swap as they are teaching me poker the following evening! The girls have been distracted, and I am not sure that their hunger for wanting to change their lives is so great, perhaps a few more lessons with the outside world first. However, I am touched by the attendance and loyalty from the guys and in return they are making amazing progress in only a few weeks. Their psychic/intuitive ability is incredible and I am so proud to be helping them. Equally, their want for more in their lives is leading them to incredible self motivation. Their aspect on what the world could offer them is changing for the better.

Sadly, our local town, Sudbury, lost a young life to a stabbing a few weeks ago. The shock wave has been immense and some of my group knew the victim. That week in our class we all talked at length about what happened and why. Organically, an idea hatched from these young people who desperately want change in their community. If a typical ignorant adult, who pigeon holes all teenagers as something of a waste of space, lent them an ear they might just learn a thing or too. I found our talk incredibly humbling and inspiring. Given a choice they would rather be playing sport or some other fun activity than spending night after night in a drossy themed pub.

Together we have given life to a project which is still in the embryonic stages, however, driven by a spiritual understanding and already some divine intervention we could change things. A chance for teenagers to have a voice and show others that they are good souls too. They are our future after all. More on this as it unfolds.

As for me, life is getting better and better. I get stronger and wiser every day. Halloween, my favourite time of the year, approaches and I will be at the Scole Inn for a haunted evening on the 31st. I am also about to embark on some new paranormal experiments with a group, based on the experiments that took place, oddly just behind the Scole Inn. Mr and Mr Foy who conducted the original Scole Experiments have sent a copy of the formula and once I acquire all the tools needed , we shall begin! I am so looking forward to seeing what will happen as the book and website is quite intriguing.

www.scoleexperiment.com

As I look back on the last few years, I hardly recognise myself. I finally feel some inner peace and the universe has been hard at work helping me. There is still a part of that mountain to climb, but, I feel the summit is near and I have found the strength to get there. Now, when clients come and see me I feel richer in experience than ever and no longer feel like the plumber fixing other people's taps whilst my own leaks at home.

Peace

The youth of today!

2009-08-20T09:41:00.000-07:00

Ok, so yes, it's been a while. Three weeks in wet Cornwall wasn't worth banging on about. Suffolk apparently, has more sunshine than anywhere in the country, and boy did I remind myself of that whilst I was in the deep south! It also has less seagulls and I am sorry, but despite the need to love all God's creatures I wish they had manners!

With respect to others I am just going to say that I am happy to be home and I realise more than ever how much I love where I live and how blessed I am to live in sunny Suffolk!

Whilst away, a lovely teenager in the village looked after my house. Yes, I left the house in the capable hands of a teenager! Seems that whilst I was sitting under an umberella on the beach, word was getting out in the Suffolk teenage community about my "cool" work!

Requests were coming in for a seance when I got back, or something else equally scarey would be "well bad" or was it good? So, this got me thinking and I thought about how many teenagers are out there bored and getting themselves into trouble. If only they could understand that karma is real, that they have an abilty to reach a "high" on meditation alone and could manifest a happy future for themselves.

Last Thursday, my girls class came and we decided to envoke angels, I hadn't asked for help myself recently and so we began to meditate. We each took it in turns to ask and we all felt amazing, I felt a massive shift.

The following day, things started to happen! Really wierd coincedences started to take place and I felt strangley protected. By Tuesday ten teenagers arrived at my house, 6 boys and 4 girls. Aged between 14 and 19 and all with the most extra ordinary tales to tell. I was recently told by some kind person that I needed to "get into the real world" well "whatever!" if I hadn't before, I have now.

I will not divulge their personal stories for obvious reasons, but I had an insight into lives that broke my heart. Brave faces, clenched jaws and the fear not to cry about incredibly tough lives rocked me. I was trying to work out how I could adopt them all!

But their fascination for my work and their gasps and squeals as I either read for them or showed them how to use their own psychic ability had them gripped.We meditated and talked about how to let go of their past and manifest a happy future.

At the end of the evening, (the last one left at 2am, which is apparently early!) I lay in bed and thanked the universe from the bottom of my heart for allowing me the opportunity to work with these young people. For the record I am not charging this group, the experience is richness enough.

Thanks to face book, twitter, texts and all other normal teenage communication more now want to come! What if......what if spiritual teaching could actually be the key to changing these young peoples lives? The future could be incredible for all of us....after all they are our future.

Is being Spiritual "the new black"?

2009-07-02T01:59:00.000-07:00

In my crazy world I meet all sorts. But, living in a western world and with a responsibility to a family and work commitments, my desire to explore India, South America and other spiritual locations can not be fulfilled right now. Yet, I often yearn to indulge in the conversation of a guru, a master or a shaman.

The word Spiritual is everywhere now, from a drop down in face book profile to a section in a generic book shop. "I'm spiritual!" many inform me once they learn about me. But what baffles me is once I learn more about them, I'm not sure if they really know what "being spiritual" really means.

Why do I recognise this? Because I was like that once upon a time....until the Universe gave me a good slap and said "put that ego away and get out there and really learn!".

There seems to be a void in so many people lives, a sense of something missing, but what on earth, or above for that matter is it!? Someone recently suggested that perhaps we are "homesick" for our true home...our soul home on the other side. I think he may have point, undoubtedly for me, there is always the thirst for more knowledge....but is it one particular book in the life library or a secret code in many. The key is your heart, not your head, if it feels right in your heart then your soul is telling you so.

Going on a spiritual journey can be very hard work, if you follow the signs, signals and your intuition then it will become easier, but our conditioning and humanness tends to blur our vision and then we end up getting lost down some dead end and have to struggle to get back.

I wonder if trends are just a comfort for some, the need to be in a tribe and have or do what everyone else is doing. At my daughter's school pre recession the car park was awash with Discovery 4x4's now mini club man's are the flavour of the month, perhaps in an effort to look as if they are conforming to new greener, less opulent life style?

Spirituality is not meant to be a trend, it's a way of life and once it's really there, it's there for life. Sometimes at a cost to other people and your own enormous personal adjustments. If you try dipping in and out when it suits then accept the consequences, karma has a lovely way of biting us on the backside when we are thought no one was looking.

The road to Enlightenment means understanding basic spiritual laws, and realising the bigger picture. The Universe is watching your every move, your intentions, your thoughts and your manifestations. It could take lifetimes to "get there" so a word of warning, don't allow your ego to look for approval by announcing that you are spiritual. Certain resident gurus in India spend years in meditation, there's no big announcement or sign saying "hey, look at me". They know that this is a personal journey and have no need for approval....that is being Spiritual.

If you want to sign up, educate yourself and meditate, flashing the latest publication from the mind, body and spirit section next to your latte at Starbucks wont enlighten you unless you read it and absorb it. Surrounding yourself with incense sticks, tarot cards, pictures of Buddha...or similar wont do it either. It's all about intention and connecting with your soul. Recognising lessons and being grateful for the now which matter. If tomorrow you mind is on another quick fix then the road will be a long one.

Peace

Happy Days

2009-06-12T04:54:00.000-07:00

"You're cooking on gas, Lizzie!" remarked a respected and good friend. And you know what...I think, maybe I am! Three years ago, I thought I had taken a wrong turning, but maybe it wasn't. It feels like I have woken up from a bad dream.

The expression "what ever doesn't kill you makes you stronger" applies. For those of you who are reading this and feel as if you are in the middle of an emotional storm, stay calm. A storm always passes, and when it does we breathe in new, fresh air and the clouds have disappeared. Then the sun comes out and everything begins to grow again. There is even beauty in the storm itself and a purpose to its presence.

Now that I have got "it" my life journey is at the moment very very exciting and I surrounded by wonderful people. It's just over a week till San Fransisco now and I am looking forward to seeing the family, new friends and working! Filming next week before I go and then more exciting stuff when I get back!

Whilst in Andalusia I visited a client who lived in the most stunning valley, we travelled along a long track through the mountains and round each corner were the most spectacular views. A poppy field like no other I have ever seen, multi-coloured goats defying the law of gravity grazing on a sunlit slope on another peppered in between with fields of wild corriander growing...amazing. Finally, we approached a gate to an the estate. The view just took my breath away as vultures swooped overhead there in the distance was the most beautiful hacienda. Gingerly we drove down the hill, until we reached a small farmers cottage on the grounds.

The owners had spent some time staying in the property but had to move back in tho the big house as they were having terrible problems sleeping, and there was a general sense of another presence invading their space. Various events eventually made it impossible for them to stay there and I was asked to fly over and help.

As soon as I walked in I felt a deeply sad female spirit who sat on a bed in a small back bedroom. She had...I believe...died of an illness brought through something in the water. This later was validated. I was with the lady who owned the house, her friend and my dear friend Christina. We opened all the shutters to bring in the light and sat around a large table in the middle of the sitting room. We held hands to raise the energy and as I spoke in English, which was then translated into Spanish, at the very moment I announced that the spirit was leaving I thought my teenage son had just left the room. There was the most almighty slam of a window..nothing broken thank God....and then it all went quiet!

Job done, a cup of tea at the big house, and then back to the retreat where I was staying. The owners decided to sleep in the cottage that night and let me know in the morning how it went..no pressure then!

The next day Christina had received the message I needed to hear. Apparently, all was very well and a new sense of peace and calm was now found in the cottage. Phew!

I will never forget that place and would love to visit it again one day, not for the same reason obviously, but it was another reminder of why I love my work. I was blessed to have met such lovely people and seen such a special place.

Climbing

2009-06-05T09:37:00.000-07:00

Five days in Andalusia were wonderful and thank you to all those angels at The Lodge who helped me connect with my soul.

Now back, the Universe continues to be incredibly giving and before I set off to San Fransisco I am filming something very exciting. Watch this space for more details later!

Right, back to real true life, as my daughter would call it, and on the subject of my darling angel, I struggled to share her excitement in the new Hannah Montana album.....based on the movie.....based on the TV show! But, track 8, floored me! Get over the fact it's America's latest teen commercial sensation and this song is inspirational for anyone who needs to get to where ever they need to be and recognise that its not the getting there...... its the journey. I needed someone to say those words to me when I went through a tough time a while ago, I haven't quite got to the top of my mountain yet, but I am climbing and now enjoy the climb. In fact, this time I am enjoying every foot that I place on every rock and if someone pushes me down... I don't need to slip all the way down....no one does. If, on the other hand someone wants to race you to the top, it doesn't mean that they are the winner either. It's the experience, sheer hard work and total belief that you will get there when no one else gives a ****, that will make you stand on that peak stronger and wiser.

The Climb

I can almost see it
That dream I’m dreaming but
There’s a voice inside my head sayin,
You’ll never reach it,
Every step I’m taking,
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking but I
Got to keep trying
Got to keep my head held high

There’s always going to be another mountain
I’m always going to want to make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes I'm going to have to lose,
Ain’t about how fast I get there,
Ain’t about what’s waiting on the other side
It’s the climb

The struggles I’m facing,
The chances I’m taking
Sometimes they might knock me down but
No I’m not breaking
I may not know it
But these are the moments that
I’m going to remember most yeah
Just got to keep going
And I,
I got to be strong
Just keep pushing on,
cause

There’s always going to be another mountain
I’m always going to want to make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes I'm going to have to lose,
Ain’t about how fast I get there,
Ain’t about what’s waiting on the other side
It’s the climb

There’s always going to be another mountain
I’m always going to want to make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Somebody's you're going to have to lose,
Ain’t about how fast I get there,
Ain’t about what’s waiting on the other side
It’s the climb

Keep on moving
Keep climbing
Keep the faith baby
It’s all about
It’s all about
The climb
Keep the faith
Keep your faith
Whoaaa Ohwaoooh

Happy climbing!

Good morning Spain

2009-05-28T00:12:00.000-07:00

Its 7.30am and I am surrounded by a backdrop of the most beautiful Spanish Mountains. The sun is already up and I can see for miles. No matter what is going on in life when you see something as stunning as this you know there must a higher force.

I thought my journey here was going to be challenging as I spent most of my time at the airport in queues. I read somewhere that we spend two years of our life in queues....two bloody years!!! So, now I avoid them as much as possible and when I am in one try to make the most of it. The flight was great.... suprisingly good actually. My host and dearest friend Tina collected me from the airport with her daughter Gina, and we made our way up the mountain, at least I think we did I kept my eyes shut most of the way....the Spanish seem to drive as if the lives are totally irrelavant!!

I feel this strange happiness today and I haven't quite figured out why. It's just a kind of "glad to be alive" feeling, blessed to have what I have and excited about the future. This morning I am off to clear a haunted hotel and then this afternoon I take part in a course....more on that later.

We cant all step outside and look at mountains to remind ourselves how lucky we are, but we all have something not far away that we can look at to remind ourselves that life isn't so bad. Family, home, a park, the sky.....go and find something and have a lovely day!

PS For those who are interested this where I am staying http://www.thelodgeronda.com/lodge/html/EN/the_Lodge_Ronda_index_en.html (my room is little door on the left!)

Serendipity

2009-05-18T04:06:00.000-07:00

Well, ever the incurable romantic, I settled down to watch the film Serendipity last night. For those who of you who are unfamiliar with this slushy chick flick, its the usual boy meets girl, but its complicated...of course! However, they decide to leave their fate in the lap of the Gods. They have to part, but not before they both write down their telephone numbers on random items. His is on a dollar bill and hers in a second hand book, which are sent out into the street of New York. Fast forward a few years and they both feel compelled to find each other and follow a fatalistic path. Funny, having seen this movie a number of times and yet it still gives me the feel good factor.

Recently, novelist Amanda Craig was reported as saying that watching romantic movies and chasing similar fairytale endings are bad for us, as it didn't reflect on real life, therefore gave us false hope. Mental note to myself not to pick up one of her books unless I want to feel bloody miserable.

In the world we live in today, where everything is very very real, poverty, war, starvation.. aren't we allowed to dream? Perhaps Amanda has some issues of her own and needs us to know that her life is not fluffy right now?

So, back to my world if I may for a minute. Whether you believe in fate or not surely it's worth a try if you have already been every other which way and it still isn't working. In the last 12 years of talking to clients, its generally the ones who listen to that well conditioned mind who have come unstuck. "I did it because, it was the right thing to do, so, why am I still unhappy?" Sounds familiar?

I believe that we are a soul in a human body and when we listen to our soul which comes from a feeling in our heart then we are on the right track. Why not try for one week to follow fate and see what happens?

Start by stopping! Stop listening to your unconditioned mind and just go with the flow, as they say. Watch out for signs, signals and coincidences. If someone invites you to something....go! If you bump into to someone you haven't seen for a while, this could be a sign. If you see things or hear things that repeatedly remind you of someone then its possible that you will have a reconnection of some kind soon. Just become more aware of your surroundings, the magazine page you just opened, the letter that just arrived, the topic of conversation on the radio you hear and so forth.

You might not meet your fairytale prince or princess by the end of the week, but you might have some fun. Isn't that what life is supposed to be about? Have fun!

A quick thank you

2009-05-06T01:18:00.000-07:00

Well, the Universe rocks right now!

Two weeks ago, Bayfield Hall became the new venue for my Soul Weekends and it was better than ever! Thanks to Caroline and Philippa who were amazingly helpful, everything ran like clock work. Even Roger who resides at Bayfield, who had spent many a meeting with me teasing me and telling me he was not going to "believe" until he had seen a ghost, finally got his wish! So, already another weekend is booked in for June if anyone would like to come its all on my website.

If that wasn't enough excitement, I am off to Spain and San Fransisco in the next few weeks. First stop, Rhonda to the most beautiful retreat to visit two clients and attend a 4 day course. It will be so good to be there again, on my last visit (which was a holiday) the owners asked me to take a look at the retreat they were building. There seemed to be a number of problems attached to the project including the funding and issues with builders. As soon as I arrived I saw spirits everywhere. My immediate reaction was that this place was on the site of a burial ground! The owners knew nothing of this and it was only when I returned to the hotel that one of the staff confirmed that is was indeed a burial ground and they didn't want to tell the owners, I had a lot of work to do.

I returned the next morning and moved on the roaming spirits, six weeks later I had a call from the owner to say that all was great and the building was almost complete. I am now returning to attend a course there and to meet another client who has a similar problem. I am so looking forward to seeing this incredible place again.

Then its off to San Fransisco! I have just signed a very exciting contract and am spending a week with doing the rounds and at the same time visiting my brother and his family. I will finally get to meet my nephew, I love synchronicity!

So thank you again universe!

The End of the World?

2009-04-23T06:05:00.000-07:00

According the New Scientist a sun storm is apparently scheduled to appear in 2012. Yes 2012...the year I have been banging on about....the year the Mayan Calender, the Celts and other ancient cultures have predicted to be the end of the world!

I can't deny coming out in a cold sweat when I read the article. A sun storm would cause a slow process of destroying the majority of our civilization. The first thing to suffer would be electricty and this would plunge, predomenantly the western world into chaos, closely followed all other means of communication, internet, mobile phone etc.

If this storm happens it's predicted to take years for a our world to recover, and although not all of us will die, many many thousands will. The most likely survivors will be those living in the third world, those who have struggled and have been ignored by the big fat greedy westerner for centuries.

How much life would change compared to now? Nothing would be so important anymore, the recession, politics, financial markets, celebrity status, material wealth.......no one will give a flying....think about it!

Is it a coincedence, and I don't believe in coincedences, that a prediction from a team of scientists colides with what we so called crazy out there spiritual believers have been banging on about for ages? How many more warnings do we need before understand what matters?

So, fast forward to our day of judgement. Did we fullfill everything we set out to do? Did we experience real love and happiness? Did we find a soul mate? Did we enjoy the planet we live on and respect it? Did we forgive and ask for forgiveness? Did we live in the now and enjoy the moment? Did we realise we are not the only person on this planet?

This is all we have got folks, and that tsunami is coming, surf the wave of enlightment or drown in your ignorance.

Sun storm or not.....what if.....think about it.....really think about it.

We still don't get it.

2009-03-17T06:16:00.000-07:00

As I have said before, I believe that the Universe is hard at work trying to remind us about what is important and what is not right now. If you aren't suffering personally from the recession yourself, then it would be wise to learn from someone close to you who is. It could be you next.

I still find it quite baffling as to the so called "needs" of some people. Still, people feel that money, fame, a bigger house, the "right friends" bla bla, will make their lives complete.

Sadly, I heard very recently about yet another friend and mother of young children who is very sick. Every time I drift in ridiculous poor me land somewhere in my head I remind myself that she is fighting for her life right now.

I was never a huge Jade Goody fan but she has been in my thoughts so much recently, glancing out at a beautiful sunset on her way to wedding venue she burst into tears and said "if I die, I won't see this any more!" She knew in her final days that the things that matter most were just in nature alone.

My children are growing up so fast, the eldest is 20 this year and it really has flown by. I am blessed with three children and even when they are being a pain in the back side I try to tell myself that one day I will miss all this chaos and long for one more day of it.

It's time to get over ourselves, really appreciate what we have in the here and now. I have been just as guilty, but I GET IT NOW!! If you want a happy life, look around you and be grateful for what you already have.

This is the lull before the storm, the tsunami of awakening is coming and you want to surf the wave, not drown underneath it.

I was meditating the other night, someone spoke to me, you can choose to beleive it or not, but it happened. He said "To have Peace on Earth we must realise we are a piece of each other".

No one is better than anyone else and everything you want materialistically will never last for ever. The only thing that lasts is love.

Update from the universe and so much more.

2009-03-01T08:00:00.001-08:00

Well, so far so good! Having listened to some inspiring advice I have started to meditate the feelings I am looking for in life. I envoked a feeling of total serenity and calm and at the same time imagined the feeling of unconditional love.

Day 1 and a friend calls and tells me a national newspaper are looking for a psychic to write about. My first instict is to think negative thoughts, till I remind myself that I am supposed to be living a fatalistic path! Immediately, I write to the journalist and get a reply straight away. To cut a long story short I will be featured in a couple of weeks.....thank you Universe!

I also responded to a new friend's e mail last week and we ended up chatting for over an hour, what came out of our conversation was so exciting and I am off to meet her tomorrow to plot an exciting project. I so want to share but have done that too many times in the past and ended up jinxing it.

At the beginning of last year I mentioned in my blog that I felt some really big changes were going to happen on this planet and here we are in the thick of a recession. In my opinion this is well over due, I feel the Universe is trying to get us all to understand what is important and what isn't. Our world is changing rapidly and at the same time the need for answers for individuals to getting the answer to eternal question "why are we here" is getting louder and louder.

Sadly, some will never understand what really matters, or have see spirituality as a fad or fashion and then go back to living a totally human existance. If we are to search for enlightenment and recognise it, we must address what we cant do, not what we can.

When we look and admire what we can do we are coming from the ego. But when we are honest with ourselves and ask "what can't we face?", then we begin to realise that those are our mountains and to climb, which will take us further in our soul evolvement.

Patience is one of my big ones...... and listening to what's left of my conditioning! How do I know that? Because I believe in the law of attraction and reflection. When I look at what I am surrounded by in people and situations I know the universe is trying to remind me that these are lessons to address in myself. However, the universe also reminds us through the most amazing signs and signals that we are on the right path and after asking for a small sign getting in my car on Monday morning, another car drove past....it's number plate......PE4CE. I love that!

Finally, I would just like to mention the fantastic night I had at the Scole Inn last week. Amongst the usual lovely crowd, three mediums arrived with infra red cameras! They were rigged up in two of the most "active" rooms to monitors, and what we all saw was amazing. Orbs were raining down like a snow storm and wierdly we found it quite hypnotic to watch. I am now waiting for one to pop up on e bay. I will be back in May for more ghost hunting.

Peace.

Catch up

2009-02-25T04:49:00.000-08:00

I know, I know its been forever since I wrote this blog, still better late than never as they say. Perhaps, there is no such thing as never, I mean, if we reincarnate then surely there is always an opportunity?

So far, I have been plotting and planning at work, I have finally found a lovely new venue in NorfIolk for my girls weekends, Bayfield Hall is owned by lovely friends Roger and Caroline and I am so looking forward to our first one in April with Barbara. Its all on my website.

Since the days of Voewood I have evolved and so therefore so have my weekends. I have been studying again and pushing further in my quest to get a little closer to whatever is out there. I am reading the most intriguing collection of books and listening lectures and the universe seems to be sending a number of fascinating new people to meet.

I have also done some letting go of my past with some interesting and surprising results. I would share but they are very personal right now and would rather wait until the time was right.

But 2009 is about parking my personal stuff and getting on with my mission in life (after bringing up my children). I am going to conduct a personal experiment for the next few weeks and only act on anything that comes into my life in a fatalistic way. I am completely following the laws of spirituality.

Everyday, I will meditate in a new way. Just by visualising myself in complete happiness and go futher by imagining myself FEELING happy. According to the great visionary known by most as just Neville (Goddard) we must take our desires into the realm of being absolutely in that moment. This is when we can manifest our desires and bring them to a realistic outcome.

Yes, there is a catch, we can only bring about our wants if we let go of our ego first. So, you cant manifest something just because you think you want it, and if it not good for others. I know its a bit of bummer but trust me when I say that I have often wished for something and once I got it I wished it would go away again!

The road to enlightenment is a long and intricate one, and so much easier if you have time to sit under a tree in Goa rather than drop your children off and whizz into the supermarket before work, or leg it to the station to catch the 7.10 Liverpool Street.

But it is, I believe, possible no matter who you are and where you are to become conscious and enlightened and day by day it becomes a work in progress for the rest of your life or lives!

Lastly, I hope you have all been catching my friend Peter Owen Jones' series Around the World in 80 Faiths. Pete is one very lucky man to have travelled to all those places and I have already told him how I jealous I am. To meet and learn so much from so many different people of so many beliefs is wonderful. He told me that the BBC have already started to repeat it, if that isn't a clue to what people really want to watch on TV.....rather than the usual rubbish that is churned out. Most humans are looking for answers, and 80 Faiths, Tribe etc are exactly what we need to educate us.

Right enough of the TV critic I am off to meditate and then it's the under 9's hockey match in the rain! This is the universe having a joke at my expense by the way!

Dreams?

2008-12-03T05:26:00.000-08:00

I was deeply touched hearing from someone who took the time to tell me how much they enjoyed reading my blogs! Thank you!

I have found myself reading so much about love recently, it's everywhere and yet no where! I have essentially been on my own for three years now and it hasn't been easy. But I have to admit that the thought of living on my own was much more terrifying than actually doing it. I learnt from someone a while back that there is a danger of becoming totally self absorbed and reclusive if you do this for too long. I am blessed that whilst my evenings are mostly spent with me, myself and I, no matter how annoying picking up Barbies or tripping over trainers are, it's a blessing to share my home with my children.

So many clients have asked for help in resolving the issue of feeling trapped in an unhappy relationship. I have looked into the eyes of women in their 70's who spent their whole life attending to the needs of a man who treated them with indifference at best and indignity and abuse at worst. The guilt and shame these poor souls felt at the prospect of leaving both then and now was far too great, and the idea that they may in fact deserve some happiness themselves was absolutely out of the question.

Many times, I have implored people with broken hearts and broken dreams to move on and understand that we all deserve a shot at happiness. And often I hear the reply"I am not as strong as you Lizzie".

For the record I am not strong, I am scared. In fact, I am terrified that one day when I reach the end of this life, and as I reflect back on how it was for me, I will ask one simple question. Did I give myself the best shot at life? Did I allow myself the chance to find love, real love. Love that is unconditional on both sides, love that involves two people looking in the same direction and sharing the same journey with the same understanding on life. Love that needs no words, yet knows everything just with a look. Even if the universe only gives that to me for one day it is better than never having had that experience.

Venerability can be your strength, and in fact those who I have met who have lived in fear have in turn also given me strength. Is it a crazy notion for a person like me, to imagine that one day someone will look me in the eye and say "I love you" and mean it from depth of their soul? Maybe, but this is my dream and I am not going to leave this life wondering if I could have been right.

Good grief

2008-12-02T02:51:00.001-08:00

It's been weeks and weeks now since I last wrote on here. I would love to say that my life has been hurtling along and has one big party.....hmmmm! Yes well back to reality, and as ever life has been the usual soap opera.

I have finally made the decision to file for divorce, I wish I could say that it was a considered decision but sadly I reached a point where I felt I had no choice. Letting go is one of my life lessons that I still struggle with, and yet it seems the Universe is hell bent on making sure I conquer this one.

I have finally realised that I deserve to be loved and cherished, to be appreciated and respected and if I cant have that then I am happy to just be with my children and enjoy life on my own.

Learning to love yourself is the hardest thing in the world to do and it was pointed out by an amazing healer I met that I have allowed too many people that I cared about to take energy away from me, to take a piece away from my heart leaving me with a gaping hole.

This healer told me to rise above them and recognise who I was and I finally got it! I GOT IT!! I made a decision to stop abusing my body and stopped smoking, and drinking coffee, started to eat well and load myself up with vitamins, and be kind to myself. I now only surround myself now with people who genuinely love and care about me, and it feels good!

I am gritting my teeth as I go through this, and when the waves of emotion hit me I have learnt to let it happen. Grieving is a process we all go through at some time in our lives. And you can only feel the fear and do it anyway. I have put off grieving my marriage for too long, and now its time to face up to it. I know I will have days when the pain will really bloody hurt. But, I also know that when I come out of this on the other side I will be a stronger and wiser soul.

I will have learnt more lessons to add to my life journal and I have to keep believing that one day I will find true love.

A message

2008-10-26T04:42:00.000-07:00

I would like to make some acknowledgements today.

Thank you to those this weekend who put their lives to one side to help someone very much in need. Thank you for your kind words of support and your understanding and for reassuring my faith in the human race.

For those who sit as judge in council and call yourself friends or similar I hold no grudge, because it is not my job to do so. The universe is the only judge and will decide accordingly and when its ready.

Thank you universe for sending me some amazing teachers this weekend, some just with wise words and others who by their behaviour have shown me that it time to be strong and raise above this lower vibration.

We as humans can not judge others, point the finger and decide the out come. Everything in life happens for a reason and sometimes it can take a life time to realise what that reason is. But we have to trust that the outcome is good. But to step into another's path and decide for them will have grave consequences and karma will take place.

There is only one judge and it is not human, it is SOURCE itself and if you go against it you are going against all things spiritual.

Wake up

2008-09-16T03:12:00.000-07:00

Something big is up, take a look around the planet right now. If you weren't snoozing under a rock you couldn't have failed to notice the world stock markets plummeting and the end of Lehman Brothers yesterday. Whilst I am sorry for those personally caught up in this recession, isn't it time to sit up and take notice of what the universe is trying to tell us? The world and everything that goes on around us, is just a reflection of what we need to address within ourselves. Floods, hurricanes, famine, war, terrorism the list is endless. Are you at war with yourself? Are you starving yourself of something - happiness or belief in yourself perhaps? Are you drowning in misery?

Illness and depression is on the increase and so many are still obsessed with materialistic wealth. Knife crime, drink and drug abuse seem to be the general topic of conversation and the media's obsession with fame and celebrity status is quite frankly bonkers and boring.

We need to get a grip, my newspaper's headline Meltdown Monday says it all. We are going to go into meltdown on a universal scale, we must grasp hold of the realisation of what really matters in our lives. There are some who have begun to see the light, but its not enough. Enlightment on a personal scale is just the first step, but to raise consiousness and change everything around us we have to connect with each other. Happiness doesn't lie in fame, wealth, money or a quick fix. Happiness lies within, and once you find it, it can change your life and those around you. If you are surrounded by others who don't get that then share it with them.

The universe is on a mission to show us all that we have got to stop and if we don't then we will be made to stop. It's already started, and unless we get it, who knows what our children and our grandchildren's future holds. If we understand that the only way is through peace and love and being kind to ourselves and others and turning our backs on the need for more and more stuff then we have a chance.

It's up to all of us now to wake up and listen to our heart, our soul and remember why we are all here. Nothing is going to change unless we begin with ourselves.

Cyber Friendship

2008-09-10T06:37:00.000-07:00

Yesterday, I received an e mail from a friend. It was entitled "If I get this back OK. if not I know why!" On opening it up I am met with an image of a girl on a bike and a script that read

Sometimes in life,
You find a special friend;

Someone who changes your life
Just by being part of it.

Someone who makes you laugh
Until you can't stop;

Someone who makes you believe
That there really is good in the world.

Someone who convinces you
That there really is an unlocked door
Just waiting for you to open it.

This is Forever Friendship.

This is the sacred RED
ROSE.

Of course it then went on to say that if I passed this on to a certain number of people, then a wish would be granted but if I didn't return it to my friend she would be insulted!

Whilst I am absolutely sure my friend's intentions were good, as I know her well enough. How many of us receive these mails, then send them out so that they might, just might, get THEIR wish and have they considered the thought of the person receiving them really? Is it really fair to put someone else in that position? Let's face it, this is just a scare mongering marketing ploy and if you are really unlucky you might get a computer virus thrown in for good measure!

Surely, the way to let friends know that you care is to just go and tell them? Perhaps, buy them a real bunch of flowers or write them a heart felt letter, or better still go and tell them! Doing a good deed for someone else is not about expecting something in return, that is what we call unconditional love.

So thank you to the person who sent me the e mail and thank you for being a friend, but I would prefer to cook you supper again soon, or do something for you that makes your life a little easier in your day. Please ask me any time you know where I am, you only have to ask. x

2008-09-09T04:26:00.000-07:00

I can't imagine why I take a break from writing, by writing but there it is. I have been churning out almost 3,000 words a day and it's heavy stuff. Last weekend, I went to a great party in Norfolk, I had such a fantastic time, I bumped into an old friend and met some interesting new ones.

One particular guest seemed strangely relieved to see me and although I can not go into why, I spent a long time talking to him and his lovely wife. Turns out he had cosmically ordered me and my help which was amazing. However, at the end of the evening when he came to say goodbye he asked me a question that so many people recently have asked me, "you look after everyone else but who looks after Lizzie?" Boy did he hit a nerve,the Universe is obviously trying to tell me something. Lizzie looks after Lizzie right now.

Yesterday, my dear friend Sandra who is fighting a terrible disease came to see me. She looked amazing and long may it last. But her intuition is now so finely tuned and she gave me a message that absolutely no one could have known about, because it was to do with my thoughts and something that has been on my mind for a while. The shock of what she told me reduced me into a wreck in seconds.But the message was understood and I needed to hear it.

Today though, I find myself feeling some peace and calm. I still have a long way to go but feel as if I am on the right path at the moment. I have a new TV idea which was met with some positivity today and my book is really taking shape.

Where as before I felt the door had just been opened I feel as if I have taken the first step into the room. Now I have to close the door, shut and lock away those I have allowed to hurt me over the years and embrace something better and happier into my life. Then perhaps one day someone will look after Lizzie.

PS Thank you Lara for your comments on the last blog and thank you for being there babe x

Destination happiness

2008-09-05T01:42:00.000-07:00

Last night whilst teaching, the subject of rescuing others came up. Women in particular are very good at this. The strange thing is most of us don't know why we do it. Perhaps it's our conditioning, or the need to feel wanted? I have been just as guilty of this trait. Don't get me wrong, I love my work and I when it comes to my clients nothing gives me greater pleasure than to see someone let go of their pain and move forward with their life with my help. It's a vocation for me. However, whilst writing my book, past relationships both in love and friendship have thrown up some painful feelings.

It feels as if you are travelling on a train, destination Happiness Central along the life journey line. The train begins to roll into the station and there standing on the platform is some poor soul surrounded with baggage. You notice that they are struggling big time with their bags, so you disembark and offer to help. Heaving the baggage back on to your carriage, you help load up the cases, squeezing them onto the shelf next to yours. The train starts to roll out of the station and your new travelling companion begins to pull down a bag and shows you the contents. It's badly packed so together you begin to take out the contents and sift through. What you don't notice is the emotionally toxic label on the front of the bag.

As you continue with your journey, you begin to feel tired, the travelling is exhausting and the toxins are beginning to effect your whole being. But you keep on going through their stuff helping them throw away the things that they don't need out of the window, so that when they reach their next destination their load is lighter. Some of the stuff doesn't make it to the window though and is strewn all over the floor of your carriage. Your fellow passenger isn't sure where they are going but you will accompany them for days, weeks, months or even years, just to make sure they arrive safely. You notice that they are now looking forward to their next stop and despite your exhaustion you sense a feeling of contentment that you have done a good turn for another fellow human being.

At last, the train come to a grinding halt or in some cases a massive jolt and the passenger gets off, leaving some rather sad and battered empty cases behind which take up your space. You are surrounded with their debris and you feel uncomfortable throwing more stuff out of the window and just don't know what to do with all the mess. They continue with their own journey, but there is no postcard or phone call to see how you are doing. Yet, they are armed with phone numbers of places and people to visit that you have suggested, a job you heard about, a book you recommended to read, a map you have drawn them, or just a knowing that if they wait on that platform another train will be along in a minute and someone else will lighten more of their load. And there on the station, just as you try to relax back into your seat, stands another passenger surrounded with bags and something inside you says, I can't say no to helping.

One day soon, we have to promise ourselves not to get off at every stop, so perhaps we will look the other way and see someone standing there waiting with just a small bag or a brief case, and we get off for a while, you let them take your baggage and put it in their car and they take you out and treat you. Or perhaps you choose to put your head down and let the train take you to your destination - happiness.

If you are that person who travels on the train get off at the right station. If you are struggling with your bags remember to be kind to the person who helped you, they did it because they cared. One day, the next train might be empty or of course the driver may be on strike and it could be a long time before the next train comes along.

Right here, right now

2008-09-02T23:57:00.000-07:00

It's the last day of the school holidays, I have tackled two school uniform lists and replenished geometry sets. I even dared to imagine a day working without the background noise of kids TV watched seemingly by a deeply uninterested cat, or my daughter who has just learnt to whistle, or the boys incessant requests. Did you know that an average 8 year old asks 800 questions a day? My children are living proof, I feel like David Dimbleby on a loop from dawn till dusk. But you know what, I wouldn't have it any other way. I realised about four weeks into the summer break that there was no point fighting for my rights as an adult and surrendered to chaos, poverty, and anadin extra.

My eldest is 19, and it seems like yesterday that he was covered in chocolate in a high chair. Everyday with our children is so precious, I love to watch them grow and learn and can't imagine not waking up with them around into my old age. One day, I am going to miss tripping over a mountain of Barbies, or switching off the bathroom tap and putting the lid on the toothpaste for the millionth time. One day, I am going to miss my teenage son's room looking like Beirut. One day, I am going to miss getting up at six and pouring caffeine down my neck to enable me function just enough to get my son on the school bus.

We must live in the now, we cant worry about tomorrow, and the past is exactly that, the past. When we appreciate what we have around us, then suddenly we find we are standing in the moment and life slows down. I feel huge excitement for my future but don't wish it away. I trust that whatever happens it is meant to be and will all make sense in the end. If you let go of trying then the universe starts to do its job.

Only yesterday, I had the most amazing day, the synchronicity was incredible and when we are on the right path life just becomes easier. So, do what feels right in your heart, and enjoy just being alive, then the wheels start to turn naturally in the right direction.

Would love to right more but apparently my daughter has nothing to wear and apparently it's all my fault, thank the Lord for school for school uniform!

Accepting what's right.

2008-08-20T03:06:00.000-07:00

I am sitting in my kitchen surrounded by five children, two of my own and three belonging to a friend who is staying from London. I adore my children but the constant need to think of something to do or even what I should cook for lunch is beginning to exhaust me. Apparently, the summer holidays were invented because the farmers needed their children to help them with the harvest many moons ago. I am not sure that happens any more! I also wonder how many working parents would prefer to have four terms rather than three.

Ok,getting off my soap box now. Last Saturday,I was lucky enough to have some media coverage and this brought one particular person, that I am very much looking forward to working with. Strangely, I had been trying to contact them a while ago but maybe the time is right now. All things happen in perfect timing. more on that when I have permission to share this.

The last few weeks have brought lots of changes for me, and this time I am embracing them. In the past, I have had regrets and did not listen to my intuition allowing myself to get more and more hurt. It's time to dedicate everything to being who I am and not what others want me to be. We can not ever be something to please others, and when this realisation hits home it's almost like taking a huge sigh of relief.

I hate the thought of getting old and am happy to admit that I will be first in the queue when they find the fountain of youth. Cliche it may be, but older does mean wiser. I am looking forward now to what life will bring, new challenges and new beginnings. I am grateful to those who have taught me lessons and wish them well with the rest of their lives.

We can only do our best and if the best isn't good enough for some people in our lives then they are not the best for for us.

Back for a while

2008-07-23T22:25:00.000-07:00

It's 6.45am and I am in a bar in Malta with my first cup of coffee of the day. It has been too long since I wrote my blog, but not so long since I have written. Three weeks ago I finally recieved a book deal and I am so excited to be writing my first paperback! The excitement had to be short lived as I have to write 70,000 words by the first of October!However, I am loving every minute of it and although I don't want to say too much about the content it is great to write about my beliefs and experiences.

I am looking for stories that are inspirational and spiritual, so if you care to share please contact me. Writing and using my own life experiences is very cathartic and I hope will help others to see things in a different light.

It wonderful how this year has been so different, still some highs and lows but the self protection is stronger,the head a little wiser and the soul feeling a little more nurished.

Dear God and the Universe

2008-06-13T03:27:00.001-07:00

Last Monday, I called an author friend of mine and talked over my frustrations over finding a publisher. "Have you tried cosmic ordering, Lizzie?" Laura asked. I told her that I do my affirmations every day, but she said that I needed to write it down. Apparently, she had asked for a new book contract by Tuesday and she got it!

Fired up, I reached for my lap top and began to write. Dear God and the Universe, thank you for..........! As I composed my list I remembered the golden rules. Everything I asked for should be in the present tense with a time limit on it. All requests should be for the highest good for yourself and those around you. Remember if you drop a pebble in the water it has a ripple effect with everything else around you. Then there is karma to consider, tempting as it is to ask for some things to happen for your benefit, but not others it WILL come back to you three fold.

Once I had finished, I saved it and started my day. What struck me straight away was the energy I felt. Immediately my soul mate Barbara Ford Hammond popped up on Skype and we got straight into plotting and planning. She also gave me a contact who called me that evening and made my year!

Now I am a bit superstitious about sharing things before they have been signed on the dotted line, so I wont share all the details yet. But watch this space if you are interested and hopefully by the end of the month my news will be official!

But I can tell you cosmic ordering works and throughout this week I have had the most extraordinary lovely surprises and feel that I have broken off the chains I had been wearing.

One of the most exciting things is that Barbara and I have decided that we missed our Soul Weekends at Voewood too much and will be finally back there again in October. There are only 19 places so if you are interested please e mail me or follow this link www.beyondbliss.co.uk It will be so exciting to be back there and we have some great things planned for the weekend.

On Thursday last week, I taught my class the art of cosmic ordering, we then picked out one particular request that we wanted. Suzie for example, wanted to improve her game of golf. She had never won a tournament and it meant so much to her, others wanted better relationships with people and one wanted news on a house. So, we when met again last night, it was time to find out if it had worked! Some had just had better weeks and felt on the right path to their wishes and wants, all had experienced better relationships with family and friends, Mel had good news on her house and Suzie won the golf cup on Sunday!

I write a letter to the God and Universe every morning now, it's rather like praying or saying a mantra. If nothing else it helps me to focus on what is important in my life and have goals. For me, my gratitude for my children's health and happiness is always first on my list, and although there are some things personal to me and my life, saying thank you for those less fortunate than us helps me to stop and think about what we really need in life.

When it comes down to it, love, health, happiness and peace are all that are really important. Ask anyone who is terminally ill, they will tell you that they appreciate the colour of the leaves on the trees, the rain outside, and the air that they breathe.

But if you feel you need more that's fine, as long as it really makes you happy, but be careful what you wish for!

Moments In Time

2008-05-14T04:16:00.000-07:00

In the last four days I have been to Turkey, then London, then home. First stop Istanbul for a wedding of a client I had never actually met! Held in the most amazing venue built 1001 years ago, Kerem and Carolina looked like the perfect couple. Their happiness was infectious and extremely welcoming.

We visited The Blue Mosque, ashamedly this was the first time I had stepped inside a Mosque and found it to be an emotional moment. There was such a strong sense of peace and yet also power there and it took my breath away. Whilst watching the Muslims praying I admired their total dedication to their faith. Whatever your faith is, it is an amazing feeling to have a total belief in something, even if it is just in yourself.

Sadly, back in London on Tuesday it was time to say goodbye to Rupert. The only good thing about the day was seeing my brother who flew in from San Fransisco and other old friends. In a packed church we sat in almost disbelief that someone so full of life and far too young had gone. Of course, my faith knows that he is fine and it was just was his time, but I felt I was crying for those he had left behind and the shock they all felt. We are all unique but there will be a massive void now Rupert has gone, he really was larger than life.

But as they say, life goes on and when something bad or sad happens, as hard as it is we must try to see a positive. For me it was reminder that every moment of every day is a bonus. My son is 11 today, and it only seems like yesterday I was holding him in my arms for the first time. Last night, I discovered what an amazing philosopher he is at such a tender age. I sat and listened to his thoughts and feelings, and some hilarious anecdotes! We had a special moment. I am a very lucky mother to have such a wonderful boy.

Farewell Rupert

2008-05-04T03:40:00.001-07:00

They say that when a door closes, somewhere a window opens. But this week is has been the other way round. On Thursday, Sandra called me, her voice was full of excitement. I was on the other phone and asked if I could call her back, she said NO!

"I have just had the results of my scan" she told me. I took a deep breath and could hardly believe what I was hearing. Sandra's cancer is 50 percent better and her bones are healing! It was the best news I had heard in such a long time, along side her chemo, her positive thinking and extremely healthy diet were paying off. Now, I am no ,mathematician but if she is 50 percent better and half way through her treatment then...............positive thinking! Miracles have happened before and they will continue to happen, but we have to believe in them.

Sadly as that window was opening and letting in the light, another closed. My brother called from California yesterday to tell me that one of his best friends had died. Rupert and Nick were friends for at least 25 years and it has been a terrible shock to us all. Rupert was a huge personality, capable of dissolving anyone into hysterics, holding court and addressing anyone and everyone as "dude". I have particularly fond memories of him during a week in San Diego leading up to Nick's wedding.

My faith helps me to understand that he has moved on to another place for now and that his soul is in tact. However, my sadness lies in the hurt both my brother and his friends will be feeling at this time, his family and of course his wife and soul mate who only married last year.

Life has so many twists and turns and it is quiet frankly exhausting, its no wonder we get old! But it is also short and we must make the most of each and every second that we are breathing. We must stop and indulge in what we already have, and live each day as if it is our last. It's a tough call, I know, but at least an awareness of that is a start.

Rupert there will always be a large void now, you will be hugely missed dude x

Real problems, real life

2008-04-28T02:15:00.000-07:00

The writer's block has lifted finally! The little darlings have their knees safely tucked under their desks and it's eerily quiet!

Last Monday my dear friend Sandra invited me to see a medium on stage in Bury St Edmunds. Sandra is one of the most amazing people I know, her cancer has returned but she is fighting it every step of the way. Her daily routine is consumed with an extreme diet of no sugar organic foods, peppered with bucket loads of vitamins and minerals to fight the effects of chemo and help her stay strong. Negative thinking is not an option for Sandra, her family and her friends. Deeply spiritual, she continues to be a light, and looks amazingly healthy and beautiful, both inside and out.

Having gone through some difficulties in my own life recently, my friendship with Sandra is a massive reality check. She is a beacon to those who think they have troubles when really they don't at all. When you are faced with the biggest challenge in your life, nothing else matters. Remarkably, she still has time to be genuine friend to me and for that Sandra, for once words fail me, thank you is not enough for being a true friend.

Last week, I had a visit from a local journalist who is writing a feature about my work. She is rapidly turning into a new friend and joined my class that night. Actually it was a good turn out on Thursday, one of my old students Susie who is now very psychic has started to come back because she misses them so much!

We had a temporary visitor to my psychic development evening course. I will be able to give you the details in due course but for legal reasons can't right now. However, when Susie arrived, I asked her to immediately "read" my visitor and her friend. Her accuracy was astounding, within five minutes she had explained exactly who they were, their relationship with each other, and why they were present.

I felt like a proud mother! It also gave the newcomers so much encouragement to know that it is possible for anyone to develop their psychic intuition.

On the 4th of June I will be holding a 48 hour Soul break at Martin Miller's hotel in Somerset. Glencot House is the perfect place to chill out, thanks to Martin's incredible eye for design, the hotel feels more like a luxurious home. There is a feeling that you are taking time off from the outside world, which is perfect for anyone who wants to join me on a course of meditation and spiritual enlightenment. For more details please contact me through my website.

I will also be at the Scole Inn, Diss, Norfolk on the 16th May for another ghostly night of paranormal investigation. Last time, we watched a very large table move across the room with just our hands resting on it. I am hoping for more activity next time!

A quick hello

2008-04-02T03:40:00.000-07:00

It's been ages since I have written this blog, mostly because if observe the last line on my description of myself, there is a clue, - mother of three! I have been up to my Easter Bunny ears in children!

Today, I am getting a dose of reality as my middle son has a close friend to stay, who's Mummy is very sick and whilst I am becoming a vintage whine about a pain in my neck and shoulders right now, it is nothing compared to what my friend is facing. One of the most deceiving things, is how amazingly healthy she looks and I pray that she remains that way.

Last night I began to help a family who are dealing with a very serious crime. It involves someone who's missing and as frustrating as it is I am unable to share with the group thus far. I hope that this will change in time and I can explain all!

My own spiritual journey is moving so fast that my feet are hardly touching the ground. I am becoming more and more sensitive to noise, whether it a high pitched sound, loud talking, background noises etc. A few years ago, I was working in LA and met an amazing healer, Dr Maria Michael. Although a qualified medic her chosen path was as an amazing healer and can scan your body psychically to detect illnesses.I noticed that she had ear plugs in her ears, so she explained that she had become so sensitive to noise that she had to wear them. At the time I thought this was amazing, now I completely get it. Oddly, when I am driving I need the music very loud but this helps me to switch off, and this year I have no doubt now that I have changed again both physically and emotionally.

Last week, a friend very kindly gave me a book on Jung. Inside she wrote a quote of his, "he who looks outside dreams, he he who looks inside awakens".

Ain't that the truth.

The so called mid life crisis.

2008-03-15T12:59:00.000-07:00

I had the pleasure of spending some time this afternoon with a girlfriend who is an academic. At present she is studying Jung and we have some fascinating discussions about spirituality.

"I wish I had been interested in all of this when I was younger" I mused. "Perhaps I would have learnt so much more and had more time ahead of me to continue my quest for knowledge.

"Ah,but Jung said, that most of us reach this point half way through life and likened it to the sun rising, then reaching a point of full potential. Then when we have reached or understood our purpose we continue till we sleep", she explained.

I have often questioned why so many of my clients are an average age of around 45. This is not to say that I see clients in their teens and in the twilight years of their lives too. However, the so called victims of the mid-life crisis are my most frequent visitor.

I meditated this question and an explanation came to me. What if the mid life crisis wasn't hormonal? What if it was spiritual? My understanding is that when we are born, we are pure and have just taken on human form, yet still very much in touch with our spirit. When I held all my babies for the first time, I looked into their eyes and felt their incredible knowing. For me, I had no doubt that they had lived some form of life before. Children may comment on past lives, a familiarity at the very least with a place they have never visited before, and at the most, incredible knowledge which has been researched and can not be explained. Or perhaps, there really is something that frightens them in their bedroom, that you the adult can not see, and what about that imaginary friend?

Early in life, we may be conditioned by our parents, teachers, peers, and so forth. We are taught what to believe and not to believe. The differences between "right" and "wrong". As we grow up some of us are driven by a religion, or a family tradition, a culture or some other following.

During our teens, we might rebel and fight to get out of this establishment desperately looking for that incredible feeling again of freedom and wonder. Some find it in drink and drugs for a while, a blind alley which has inevitable consequences. Others, stop kicking and screaming and decide that losing yourself in conforming with studies etc, will lead to Utopia.

So fast forward to the point where, there you are. You have the job you "should" have, the spouse your parents would approve of, children perhaps, your home is perfect and you have everything in place.

So why the hell do you feel as if there is still something missing? Why do so many people feel a void, a lack of something inside them. Or is already going really wrong? Apparently its called the mid-life crisis!

Is it love that's missing? Possibly, if your partner is not your soul-mate. Is it knowledge, possibly, even the most academic jobs can become boring if you are not getting any personal reward.

Drowning in booze or drugs, a new car, a quick one with the secretary etc is just another blind alley driven by car named fear. Time for a reality check, time to stop listening to your head (your conditioning), and listen to your heart (your soul).

You have reached half way in your life, and you know the second half of your life is the journey back into spirit form. It's time to trust yourself and follow your heart. That is why we begin to question our life and it's purpose and why some have come to see me and people like me.

I am no guru, no preacher, just a person who has lived a life full of incredible ups and downs. My crisis came and I have learnt that the only way to be happy is follow my heart. Resist it and expect more pain.

Your soul is amazing, and it is all knowing. Your head is full of opinions. When something feels right you know it in your heart, you can really feel it. Spirituality is love and knowledge and much more. But that's just my opinion and you must do what feels right for you.

The storm before the calm

2008-03-12T06:46:00.000-07:00

Something is happening, these amazing winds we are having fill with me with a curious excitement, rather like the film Chocolate,as if something is about to happen. I can't get enough of being out in this weather, in the last month there has been an earthquake and now more extraordinary weather. What's next?

It has taken me a few days to get my head around what happened on Sunday (please see my last blog). I truly believe I was meant to be there, and learn some amazing lessons from that experience. I witnessed the end of a man's 82 years of life, and watched his incredibly dignified wife say good bye to the man who walked her path in life with for 53 years. As she bent over to kiss him goodbye for the last time, her calm composure rocked my soul, leaving me feeling deeply humbled.

I reflected on my own life and how I have shed many many tears for men who have come and gone in my own life, who didn't care about my feelings. Yet, this wonderful amazing woman told me he had been loved and he loved, it was just his time to go, and I knew she felt certain that she would see him again.

This is a major reality check for me. Every day life is changing, go and stand in the wind and feel it. There is so much more to come.

There are no shops at the cemetery

2008-03-10T03:54:00.000-07:00

As I got into bed last night, I heard a woman's voice outside on the street, she was calling repeatedly to someone in a car. I went to the window and as I looked down I saw it was my neighbour opposite, very distressed. I opened the window and asked her if she was OK, "I think my husband is dead" she said. Another neighbour and friend came out and asked me to get an ambulance.

Dialling 999, I rushed downstairs and my eldest son and I went across the road to help. Albert was slumped in the driver's seat and completely motionless. I knew a male nurse lived a few doors away and woke him and asked him to help.

John lifted Albert out of the car and placed him on his living room floor, with direction via me he began CPR. My son made sweet tea, and I held his wife's hand with one hand and the phone in the other.

The paramedics arrived and every attempt was made to bring this lovely 82 year old back to this earth. I tried to tune in to him, asking him to come back, but was unable to do so. He had driven his wife from France yesterday, and just as he had pulled up outside the house, while his wife had gone to put the lights on...... it was his time to go.

Albert lay on his sitting room floor for around three hours in total, he seemed so peaceful. Seconds after the medical team pronounced his death, I watched him float just above my head.

Yesterday, my oldest friend Samantha and I were discussing people who ignore the things that matter in life, ie love of course.

"There are no shops at the cemetery" she pointed out. At the time, I thought it was a hilarious comment, and so bloody true. But as I stared at Albert on the floor last night, I was sharply reminded of how delicate life is. You never know when it is your time, and the only thing that mattered to him at the end, was his wife and soul mate of 53 years.

Albert wont be shopping today, he won't be looking for a pat on the back from someone, it doesn't matter to him now what he did for a living, what mistakes he might of made, what his surrounding were. All that matters is that he was loved and he loved. Because love is an energy and we are an energy, so that's all we can take with us when we die.

RIP

Finding me

2008-03-02T09:13:00.000-08:00

Do you remember a time in your life when you really felt like you? Not something that someone else expected you to be, or worse, who you thought you should should be.

I have been on a bit of a mini adventure in the last week, hence my lack of blogging. Whilst I have known for some time now that the key to happiness is to look within, I'm the plumber who has no trouble fixing other people leaks and dripping taps, yet at home...........!

Everywhere I look, I am reminded that I need to turn everything back on myself and discover who I really am. Even more scarily, according to those who already "get it", I have to learn to love myself!

Most of us know that there is no one in this world who can fill the void we might feel, that sense of something missing. I do know that we don't "need" someone, and I do know that we can't expect anyone to love us unless we can love ourselves first. Yes yes yes, I get that bit, but understanding how to love yourself is for me, akin to being told to learn ancient Hebrew without any books!

Still, I guess it was a start just understanding that this was my task. I have an all knowing girlfriend in London who has learnt this language. This week, she explained in plain English what I needed to do.

"Once you get it Lizzie, it's like learning to drive, when you get the whole steering wheel,pedals,gear thing - you never forget"! Well, that's good news, I mused, just need to find the right formula. But, as I'm digesting this, something struck a cord. My friend tells me I need to go back to a time when I felt like me, the real me. As I lay on the sofa, I felt the strangest feeling, it was as if I had landed back in my body for the first time in ages. I started to remember being a little girl, when I was just happy with life, and my surroundings. I realised that holding on to that moment had the most profound effect on me.

The next day, I dropped into one of my favourite shops, The Chrystal Shop in Bury St Edmunds. The energy from all the different crystals is almost tangible, and as soon as a friend and I walked in we felt it. Cosmo, the owner, asked me how I was doing. With a huge sigh I found myself sitting on the floor telling him about the blocks in my life, my quest to falling in love with myself and the boredom of attracting people who seem to make it their vocation to emotionally attack me.

"They are just your mirrors, Lizzie. They just remind you that you don't like things about yourself". He handed me a pack of cards and asked me to pick one. As I closed my eyes I commented that I could see the colour red so strongly, as I pulled out my card and turned it over it was indeed bright red and the title was fire. Cosmo explained its meaning - letting go of elements in my past, that keep me back and accepting that I was about to go on the biggest change in my life yet.

Saturday brought the final leg of my adventure, I met up with a new friend, Laura. We met for the day at Ickworth House, over six hours we drank gallons of tea, and talked and talked and talked. We had briefly met in Norfolk last summer, but it seemed that the Universe wanted us to wait a while before we finally got together. It was worth the wait, we discovered the most extraordinary coincidences between us, and both agreed there was a reason why we had met. At times during the day we believed that something strange was going to happen. However, there were no arresting moments, although there seemed to be an understanding between us that we that made me feel as if Enid Blyton had moved into the realms of spirituality. We have already spoken again and we both know that there is so much more to come.

There are times when I love being someone else apart from Lizzie. Yesterday, I was Mummy and opening my beautiful homemade presents from my daughter was wonderful. The effort she had made in my card was so touching. Even my 18 year old son remembered. So thank you my gorgeous children who I love so much. Now I just have to love me.

Death before life

2008-02-16T02:17:00.000-08:00

At dinner last night, I was in the company of people who had lost children. One had lost her child as an adult the other had lost two infants. Another friend suffered a miscarriage.

Losing a child, is a thought none of us want to even go to. A child is a gift and to have that gift taken away, is beyond any other pain. I have seen many clients who have bravely come to see me, having lost a child. Personally, I find it hard to understand how they are even dressed and functioning. A serious reality check for those who moan that they are having a bad day, because life isn't quite working out for them. But I won't get started on that.

Miscarriage, however, is a taboo subject for some still. The grieving mother is met with empty comments like "it is probably for the best" and similar. Perhaps that's true. But when you know there is a life growing inside you, and then it is gone, a mother can feel a failure, asking herself what did I do to harm my unborn child?

Unlike, losing a once living person, there is nothing to show for it. You have nothing, except a hormonal party driving you insane. No grave, no photos, nothing.

Prof Brian Weiss wrote two of my favourite books, Many Lives Many Masters and Only Love is Real. These books changed my life. Weiss, is a past life therapist who re- counts experiences with patients who give him an insight into life on the other side. One patient explained that the soul of an unborn child does not fully connect with the body until birth. The soul travels backwards and forwards from the other side until it is time to begin life in human form. The soul of a foetus, that doesn't make it for one reason or another, is never damaged and will return to one or either parent in the form of another child in this life or the next.

If you know someone who is going through this experience right now, talk to them. Just because nature took it's course doesn't mean that it wasn't real. It is a silent grief.

The Human Race

2008-02-15T08:40:00.000-08:00

What's happened to the human race?

The human race it seems, is exactly that - a race for humans. A race to get to some kind of imaginary finishing line. A race, that is the most long and exhausting marathon ever.

Humans seem to always be trying to get somewhere, trying to achieve something. As we run this race we collect things along the way, emotional batons which just weigh us down and the race becomes harder and harder. Unless, of course, someone kind comes along and offers to help carry the load. So, some of the emotions are dumped and then the runner feels lighter, they keep on running. Leaving another poor soul to carry their stuff too.

On top of that, we seem to make the road harder for ourselves too, we take short cuts and then end up in a dead end. So, we have to get back on the road again, but that's not easy because we have picked up more emotional stuff whilst we were down the wrong path.

Some even decide to run the race completely blind-folded, certain in the knowledge that they know the way or they will be guided by someone else. Or worse, we find something to help us along, a crutch.

Then, there are those who want a crowd to watch, approval and a big prize at the end or a pat on the back. To the extent, that they will even trample over others to get there.

Then there are the seekers, they see it more as a treasure hunt than a race. Looking for guidance, searching out for anything that will help them to make the journey more comfortable. Easing the suffering, an aid in jumping the hurdles. But something that won't bring them back down with a huge crash landing. Reading the sign posts.

These people walk not run, and they sometimes even stop and take in the scenery, breathe in the air and enjoy their surroundings. The other runners realise they are not out of breath and don't want to win anything because they already have the prize. It's there all around them any way. They appreciate what they already have, and know there isn't anyone who is going to pat them on the back at the other end, because it doesn't exist - the end that is.

We could all be winners if we realised life isn't a competition - a race. We are all the same and we have everything we need to enjoy our lives.

Stop running! Stop and live in the now, look around you at what you already have. Notice every detail about your environment. Ask yourself what is really important. Ask yourself who really cares for you and realise what you really have.

You can't take money, fame and fortune to your grave and there is no such thing as approval. But you can pass on happiness and love. And your grave is the finishing line I'm afraid. Yes, I believe we come back, but hopefully with some knowledge for the life that we are a soul not a human.

Which one are you?

Happy Valentine's Day

2008-02-13T01:31:00.000-08:00

With Valentine's Day looming, I thought today, I would write about soul mates. For those of us, who wont be getting a large bunch of roses, a card, or a sports car with a ribbon round it (I live in eternal hope), tomorrow could be tough.

If you believe as I do that we re-incarnate, in each life we live, there are lessons to learn. Those lessons, can only be learnt through the help of others, and I believe that those who help us, kind or not are our soul mates. They are there because they have been there before, in previous lives and they will crop up again and again, in future lives until we get it!

Some will have an impact on you, so strong that it will take your breath away, either filling your heart with love that you didn't know existed and others will break your heart to the point of physical pain. This can be anyone from your worst enemy to your best friend.

But I can guarantee, that you will learn and grow with all of these people and discover things about yourself that you didn't know existed. I believe we do have within that group of soul mates, at least one who is your twin soul.

Since records began, twin souls or soul mates have been a fascination amongst all civilizations. I love the story of Plato's Symposium, where humans consisted of four arms and legs and a head with two faces on it. The Greek God Zeus was threatened by their power so split them in two and doomed them to spend eternity looking for their "other half".

There is even a scientific thesis on the subject for the more logical thinker! A twin soul is simply a person who makes you feel happiest on the inside and therefore you have no desire to find anyone else.

But, what if you feel you have found your soul mate and the other person doesn't "get it"? I asked the boys upstairs, and they simply told me that if the feeling is so strong, and you have had a series of signs and wierd coincedenses, then the other person is just too human to remember. Sadly, it could be that it's just not meant to be, at least not in this life time. Although, until they connect they will never find peace.

Love is the most incredible energy on this planet, and like spirituality, your God or your faith, you know it exists and yet you can not prove it. You know it's there in your heart, and yet to express it, is so hard.

If there is no Valentine to love tomorrow, love yourself. Tell yourself, that it's your day instead, spoil yourself, be kind to yourself. Remember that someone out there loves you, even if it's not the partner of your dreams, someone loves you.

If you want love, you need to give it. If you have it, you should cherish it, because it is the most valuable precious gift in the world. We all have someone out there, but the law of attraction will not work unless you start by finding love within yourself. Then, and only then will your soul mate find you.

Starting Young

2008-02-07T07:03:00.000-08:00

Some people feel children are very psychic and I genuinely believe that when children are talking about past lives, imaginary friends and "hearing and seeing" things in the night, they are.

I lived in a very haunted Old Rectory as a little girl, not that it bothered me. At bed time, I would stuff all my teddies and dolls into bed with me, it was a miracle there was enough space for me! When I was around 5 years old, I remember being woken by the sound of a small bell. As I sat up in bed, still sleepy, I remember the whole of my bedroom being filled with light, a beautiful white warm glow.

As I looked down at the floor, I noticed that all my beloved toys were sitting in a circle in the floor, and apart from me,my bed was empty. For some strange reason, I wasn't frightened, although I did feel I was not supposed to see what was happening.

My 10 year old son, went on holiday to Italy two summers ago, with a school friend. I recently caught up with the mother who had invited him. She is also very spiritual, an amazing person, and she told me about an incident that had happened out there.

It was during the day, and suddenly my son had come rushing through, in a terrible state, she described him as "hysterical". Shaking, he told her that there was a man staring at him in the hall of the villa sitting on a chair.

The mother went to investigate, and although she saw no one there, it was clear that my son was looking at something. "He has told me the time has come" he told her. She took my son's hand and they both went back into the other room, she calmed him down, told him that they were both going to go back and speak to the man and ask him to leave because he was frightening my son.

Gingerly, he took her hand and they both went back into the hall. She called to what appeared to be an empty chair, and she asked the "spirit" to please leave. "He's gone!" my little boy said, and according to my friend, he immediately relaxed.

I am so grateful that my friend had the insight not to treat this flipantly, she had shown total repect to what my son was seeing. To tell a child not to be silly, "there's nothing there", is just conditioning the growing mind. Children are free spirits and if they grow up trusting their own insticts, instead of believing everything everyone else tells them, it will help them to make the bigger decisions later in life. They will learn to follow their heart not their head.

Leaving the words to the expert

2008-02-03T10:12:00.000-08:00

Maybe that's the way you live you life but I know...
...you live... your... life...

Life... You see it don't always live that way

(L)
Jade,
A shade of pain and then we die.
Jade,
A shade of pain and then we die... Oh why...
Jade,
A shade of pain and then we die.

Maybe that's the way... (L)
Maybe that's the way, but it don't always live that way

Now that I understand the beauty of what they've left to hand me down.
When you need a place to live and no one understands you.
And all you want to do.
Is to cry out loud.
But you don't know how.
No way, no-one,
No-one understands.
The hand that strikes.
When just a touch of love is all the problem needed,
And when you hurt someone so much that still they die loving you.
And all you want to do,
Is to cry out loud.
But you don't know how,
Jade...

Extract from Deepwater by Seal

Dreaming of a future

2008-01-31T11:19:00.000-08:00

I have this re-occuring dream, I am in a house, I know it so well now, I could make a model of it. Some of the rooms are beautiful and others are never used. There is a pool outside, which I swim in, yet the water is green. There are lots of people I know around me, but I go off to an area of the house which is untouched, old. I climb this staircase and at the top, is a corridor full of books. On the book shelf there is a small leather bound book that I need to read, I "know" it has the answer to everything. I reach out and take it off the shelf and then I bloody - well wake up!

I am sure some dream analysist would tell me that it's all about me needing to do more in my life, and obviously the book is significant with my work and the constant search for truth.

The funny thing is I have met other people who have had the same dream, even down to the details of the rooms. Are we all searching for something, knowing that there is so much more to life than what we see from day to day?

It feels for me as if there is, never before have there been more and more souls on this earth looking for a faith, a belief in something, proof of life after death, and need to give up their regular lives and follow something more spiritual. When you feel it, it's amazing and you want to share it with everyone. Like that feeling when you love someone so much that it just takes over you whole being.

I feel that we are getting closer to finding our soul purpose and beyond. You just have to believe what you see. I have already experienced incredible phenomena and I know there is more to come. I have had things happen to me that I know are beyond coincedence, and in my heart I know that it will all make sense in the end.

Thank you

2008-01-29T07:54:00.000-08:00

Since writing these blogs I have discovered that I have people reading them from all over the world, and some of you have made some wonderful comments and sent lovely e mails, thank you for that.

It is also lovely to know that right on my door-step I have people interested too. In fact, only yesterday, thanks to two very sweet elderly ladies, who were passing the morning over a cup of coffee, came across my blog.

I am so grateful to them both for spotting some errors I had made, and contacted an acquaintance of mine to alert me to my mistake.

I would just like to say to them both that its so flattering to know that you take the time to read my thoughts and took such trouble over alerting me to what could have been a disaster!

Sometimes in life, we forget that true kindness and friendship is right under our noses, whilst we are busy with our lives.

So thank you!

A psychometry class

2008-01-23T13:35:00.000-08:00

Well, another good night at the Scole Inn, this time we were Cosmic Ordering. My dear friend and fabulous author Barbara Ford-Hammond, came with me. This time we spent the evening in a private dinning room and it was a girl's night. Most of the evening resembled an episode of Blue Peter with everyone cutting and sticking from magazines, pictures that symbolized their "wants" for the future.

One lady actually found a photo of the exact church in Italy that she wanted to go to and had visited before. Since there weren't many magazines to go round it was pretty amazing.

I also showed the group how psychic they were already, and asked them all to place an object belonging to them into a bowl, then they went back to retrieve one belonging to someone else (not knowing who) and hold it in their hands to see what they felt from it. We had some wonderful results, giving everyone the confidence to know that we all have a power that we need to use more often!

Why not try this psychometry exercise at home with a group of friends, it's fun.

I am now busy putting my own mind board together, looking at it every day and doing my affirmations.

I am also on the hunt for some really good 21st century ghost stories at the moment. So if you would like to share them with me please e mail me at lizzie@lizziefalconer.com.

Extreme Pilgrim

2008-01-13T14:25:00.000-08:00

Finally, the BBC has decided to treat us like intelligent human beings again! After a plague of rubbish on TV day after day, at last our souls are being challenged.

Extreme Pilgrim presented by Peter Owen Jones is in my opinion (and a few of my friends!) at least, a breath of fresh air. A year and half ago, whilst flicking through the channels one night, I stumbled across Peter presenting Church of England: The Power and the Glory. Then through a series of weird coincidences, I was led to meeting him.

Pete invited me to his beautiful Parish in Sussex, where I spent the day discussing everything from reincarnation to the afterlife and beyond. He is a totally inspiring vicar and although some feel he is a little unconventional, in my opinion the Church of England should be taking on more priests like him.

I understand that less than 10% of this country are church goers these days and sadly most of those who do go, are in the twilight of their life on earth. Perhaps, just checking in before they get to the pearly gates?

My Grandfather, Great Uncle and Uncle were all vicars and my father is deeply Christian, however, my conditioning was balanced with my maternal grandparents being psychic. Having any religion or faith is a wonderful asset, and far richer and more comforting than having no faith at all. I often wonder, if God placed various prophets around the world, Jesus, Buddha, etc to spread the message globally. Then as time passed, the "Word of God" simply altered to develop different beliefs. My faith is taken from various sources that feel right for me, and in essence are extracts from each religion.

If you struggle to believe in God or an afterlife, because you can't "see" it, perhaps you could compare it to love? Do you believe in love? You know it exists and yet you can't prove it. But love has the greatest effect on our emotions and our lives.

If you missed The Extreme Pilgrim you can catch it on line www.bbc.co.uk/iplayer/page/item/b008nzf5.shtml?filter=azgroup%3Aefg&start=2&scope=iplayeratoz&version_pid=b008nzdy

Mirror, mirror..

2008-01-08T14:38:00.000-08:00

Yesterday my gorgeous daughter and I took a trip to the hair dressers. Having had her cut and blow dry, she paraded around the salon glancing in every mirror, admiring herself. The stylist and I giggled at her innocent vanity, but it got me thinking, was this wrong?

Shouldn't we all believe we are beautiful in one form or another? As we grow up we get knocked along the way. As children some us were bullied at school, then there were the teenage taunts, not helped by the awkwardness fuelled by our hormones. So is it any wonder that as we launch into adulthood and begin to settle into serious relationships, our self esteem is, well, pretty buggered.

Most of us reach out for something to numb the pain. Drink, drugs, hopeless relationships, eating disorders - and the list goes on.

Having suffered from bulimia, which has nothing to do with vanity by the way, I know what it feels like to simply want to disappear. There was an overwhelming feeling that I was "in the way". Led by the feeling that I was irritating and upsetting people. Hopefully, the worst is behind me now, but it sits like a gremlin on my shoulders every day.

Nobody is perfect, including the bullies, but when one tries to give love and it is simply taken, then thrown away or you get a kick in the teeth for your trouble, your confidence evaporates and we reach for the nearest branch.

We have to stop screaming inside, and start searching inside instead. You have good qualities, talents and a uniqueness that is special and amazing. There is also an inner strength in there too, and once you have found it, it will help you to change your life forever.

My job now, is to bring up my children to believe they are beautiful on the inside and the out. If my daughter sees a beautiful person in the mirror, then she is damn right and there is no way I am taking that away from her. As for me? Well, I will keep working on myself and doing my affirmations, and making sure that I don't spend time with people who want to take away my strength.

So, go and look in the mirror now and every day, tell yourself you are a beautiful person both inside and out, until you believe it. Because you are!!

A ghostly tale for an unexpected motorist.

2008-01-06T15:46:00.001-08:00

Last night, I was invited for dinner with a new friend in the village and met some neighbours. "So, what do you do, Lizzie"?

Thankfully, the answer was met with a good reaction. In fact, it was one of those evenings that turned into a good old fashioned ghost story-telling session.

Having been so ensconced recently, in changing peoples lives, including my own, I had forgotten how thrilling a good spooky story can be. Our village, is steeped in history and so it was no surprise to hear about the ghost in Phebe's room that keeps her awake at night. But don't be mistaken into thinking that only old houses have resident spirits, I have moved on the dead from places that are newly built too.

Anyway, back to ghoulish tales and Rebbecca recounts a friend's experience, which I wanted to share, as I loved it!

One night, her friend (let's call him John) and his friend, are travelling a long journey home, through Cambridgeshire, when they realise that the petrol gage is almost on empty. They begin searching for a petrol station, but there is no sign of one, so decide to take a turning off the beaten track.

Not knowing where on earth they are, travelling aimlessly in the dark and now on the red, suddenly they see the welcoming lights of a garage. They pull in, John get out, and whilst filling up, comments to his passenger on how eerily quiet the place is. As he walks to the pay booth, he also notices how strange the lighting is, and continues to the cashiers.

Behind the till are two young teenagers, are they Goth's perhaps? On drugs? They did look very pale and a little too serene. He pays by card and get's back in his car, and travels the rest of their tiring drive home, thankful for the full tank.

Some months later, once again John finds himself in the same area and running low. Confident that he knew he would be able to replenish the tank, he takes the same turning and looks for that late night petrol station. But, this time he couldn't find it. He drove around for an age, certain that he was in the right place and finally pulls up to ask a local, walking by, for directions.

"There isn't a petrol station for miles around here mate" said the man. John insisted that he had stopped for petrol not that long ago, and was sure it was nearby. "Well, there used to be one, but that was around ten years ago, there was terrible accident and it burnt down killing some people, so it was never rebuilt" came the reply!

Shaken and confused, John, who by all accounts was a perfectly normal, logical guy went home and checked his credit card statement. Surely, the petrol bill would show up and there would be a perfectly good explanation? Yup, you've guessed it, no sign of any petrol on the statement.

Oh! If only every petrol station was run by ghosts, and supermarkets, and mortgage companies, and travel agents...........................!

Sleep well!!!

It's all about me.

2008-01-04T09:19:00.000-08:00

Phew! Well we are only on day four of 08 and it's going well! How about you?

The Universe will not place in your life what you want, unless you clear the path first. It's not easy, but don't settle for anything less!

Too many people, feel they don't deserve better. For example, amazing women who are abused by men, men who take out their insecurities on loving partners. It saddens me, to hear stories that would make your skin crawl, or worse, ones that you could relate to.

By the way, this isn't a men bashing session, there are men who feel helpless and have lost their ability to recognise who they are, well yes - a man, but also a soul sitting in a human body.

The need for approval is becoming an epidemic, in this mad world, we seem to have lost sight of who we really are. An acquaintance of mine, spent the whole time talking about himself, in my boredom, counting how many times he said "I" passed the time! The sad part is, that it raised the question, did he know himself at all? Perhaps he only knew who he wanted to be, and more importantly, how he wanted other people to see him. There is no such thing as approval, because we are all equal.

A good exercise is to try to illiminate the word "I" from your vocabulary, and replace it with "me" or your name. It helps us to speak from the soul, rather than from our conditioned mind. When we say "I" we are talking about the person that we want others to see. We are detached from who really are inside.

When we learn to get to know ourselves, we can learn to like ourselves. Then when we learn to like ourselves, we don't seek other people or situations to fill the void. And we all know where that can end.

It's working for me!

New Year, New Us.

2007-12-31T20:28:00.000-08:00

It's 4.30am on the 1st January 2008, and I know I am not alone in being thrilled to see the back of 2007. At the stroke of midnight I felt as if the world had been lifted off my shoulders. One friend whispered in my ear "you deserve a better year, this year Lizzie, and I hope you find your happiness!" I have heard a version of that comment from lot's of close friends over the last few weeks, it has helped me to realise how lucky I am to have people who care about me, in my life.

Apparently, 2007 was a bad year because the 2 and 7 make 9 and that's all to do with endings, where as now in 2008 we are back to a 1 which is new beginnings. Thank God!

Right up until the midnight chimes, for me, things have been turbulent this year. One of my New Year's Resolutions is to only take with me, from last year, my wiser- self. I finally mentally excluded one person today, promising myself and my friends that this person's name would never ever be uttered again. When we waste energy on people who don't deserve it, we are loosing our power to make both people we love and ourselves happy. It's so tough to let go when we have been wronged, but karma can only begin to take place when we do. So, to that person - R.I.P.

Welcome 2008! Am I glad to see you, I know this is going to be a good one for me, my family and all those who deserve it. This is the beginning of the journey now for those who want enlightenment. And for those who don't - good luck!

Need to go to sleep now - got a busy year ahead!

More ghostly experiences.........

2007-12-19T10:20:00.000-08:00

I wish I could write these blogs every day, maybe that should be my New Year's resolution.

I have such a good feeling about 2008, for me, it feels like the countdown to 2012. The next four years will be so fascinating to watch unfold. I feel, that the last few years have all been about learning and questions. The eternal "why am here?", "what is my purpose here?", "why do these things, good or bad, happen to me?"

Now, it's like being on Spiritual Facebook! Everyday, I either connect, or reconnect with like-minded people, and those who in the past were responsible, and those who could possibly send me hurtling down the pain path seem to be becoming less and significant in my mind. Actually, come to think of it, I am totally responsible for allowing them to send me off into emotional destruction, it's just that my wall between them and me seems thicker, tougher.

Last Thursday night, I gave a talk at the Scole Inn at Diss. Sixty turned up and there was even a waiting list! I won't pretend I was nervous, but before the bit where I addressed lots of unfamiliar faces, I made a point of welcoming and shaking as many people's hands a possible. It helped me to get to know them a bit better, a smile breaks down a thousand barriers.

I started my speech, and before I knew it I had spoken for over an hour! We stopped for supper, then it was down to business! I sent my guests on ghost hunt around the hotel and we ended up in a large function room. I decided to try to get something moving so we laid our hands gently on a large table. As our palms rested the table started to creak, and then we felt a vibration, as if a train was underneath it! Sadly, because there were so many people coming and going in the room, we kept losing our energy. However, one girl took a number of photo's and orbs* appeared in each shot. The most amazing picture quite clearly showed a face on the table, a man with a beard and long face.

Back in front of the bar's roaring fire at 2am, those left, brought pictures of more light anomalies in various rooms. Some people were very scared and others amazed, including an amazing young man aged 16, was very psychic. He was so inspiring and he knew that, whether he liked it or not, he had found his vocation. I suggested, that it was wonderful that he had the opportunity to tap into his fellow teenagers. He could show them that there was more to life than drugs and alcohol. I hope to do some work with him in the New Year.

The following night, exhausted, I fell asleep at 5.30pm and during the night I had the most extraordinary dream. In fact, I am not sure if it was a dream, I felt as if I left my body and floated around the house, I was surrounded by spirits and at one point I saw a child running through the house making lots of noise. I know I shut the doors before I slept yet in the morning they were wide open and there was no other explanation.

* Orbs are a generally form in circles of lights on a photograph though it is also possible to see them on film and some see them with naked eye. They are said to be the first manifestation of a spirit.

In with the Faith and out with Fear!

2007-12-10T12:53:00.000-08:00

I was reading with my daughter tonight and for some reason, a lovely friend of mine who, I heard was expecting a long awaited and much wanted baby popped into my head. I suddenly saw her holding a baby girl (they didn't know the sex of the baby before the birth),and I just knew that she had arrived. Two hours later, and I just received a text announcing the safe arrival of Poppy.

When you pour your energy into the right things in life, being psychic can you bring you so much happiness. But it is an energy and if we place into the wrong things it can be so destructive both to yourself and to others.

I read for a client recently, who felt bullied by everyone around her, and it was taking over her life. We all have an amazing energy, and if we pour it into negativity its like filling a car with petrol, with a hole in the tank. I have been guilty of the same thing, I have spent hours wondering why certain individuals can use me for friendship and help, only to walk away, and be very nasty once they have no more use for me.

The bottom line is, it doesn't matter. Bullies and are weak and want our energy, don't waste it. It will give them a sense of power and you will feel weaker and weaker.

When you focus your energy to yourself, your life, and those you love, you are back on the right path. Meditation is so helpful for this, either by detaching from bad energy or by bringing positive energy into yourself again.

Find a quiet place and give yourself permission to relax, allow any outside noises to relax you even further, and any thoughts that pop into your head tell them you will deal with them later. Imagine yourself surrounded in white light and breathe positive energy in and exhale the negative. You may see different colours, so if you want to breathe those in too, that's fine. Just try to relax even if it's just for 5 minutes.

If you do this everyday for just a week you will start to notice a sense of calm and inner strength. Start preparing yourself for 2008, Christmas can be so stressful, treat yourself to 5 minutes a day meditation.

You are an amazing and wonderful being, and you deserve to happy.

Your inner strength.

2007-12-02T05:19:00.000-08:00

Two weeks ago I started a new class at home and already I am getting the most amazing results with the group. They are all ages, the youngest is a lovely 18 year old who comes with her mother, then I could virtually get a small soiree going with a singer, a designer and a dancer amongst others.

They resembled rabbits in head lights when they first arrived, and clearly had no idea what to expect. Yet, within the space of two weeks they've already made such huge changes. Last week, I taught them how to do a simple meditation and connect with their higher selves. A week later, and the one thing that seems to have changed more dramatically than any other, is their inner strength. Er, not sure I'm popular with a few husbands now though!

By giving people a route to their inner strength, the impossible can become possible. There are too many people out there who doubt themselves. If believing in the afterlife is not your thing - that's your choice, although having a faith of any kind is healing, but, believing in your-self is essential.

We allow others to take away our ability to survive, and be truly happy. We choose to let people destroy us, or make us miserable. Too often, I see clients who feel helpless because they feel trapped by bullying partners, family and work associates. We all know that a bully is someone who is insecure and will comfort themselves in taking it out on others.

The Law of Reflection, is there to remind us, that what ever someone says about you or to you, is a reminder of what they actually think of themselves. It's so easy to attack someone who is close to us or means something to us, calling someone a liar or useless, calling someone manipulative or evil. Ask yourself, what is manipulative or bad about them? What are they lying about, or are they just lying to themselves?

We all know people in denial or on some kind of self destruction route. Personally, I seem to be surrounded by one extreme or the other, incredibly kind and helpful people or the emotional vampires.

If you can change one person's life for the better, that's amazing - the feeling is better than anything. Too many good people are going through a tough time, but nothing stays the same for ever.

The Hermetics believed that life was like a pendulum, we stay in exactly the same spot and what might seem awful can swing to wonderful, and of course the opposite. It's up to our choices and our beliefs. Just by changing the way you look at a situation to another perspective, can change your feelings. If for example, you feel someone has hurt you, ask yourself was that their intention?

PS Thank you for comments and questions you have e mailed re this blog. If any one has anything they would like to ask, please go ahead.

Seeing the dead for the first time

2007-11-29T05:47:00.000-08:00

When you have a weird job like me, it creates some interesting reactions from people. Some run over the hills and far away, others ask if I am sure I'm not "a medium, not a small?" (hilarious!), but most, are curious and ask "how did you know you were a medium?".

My wonderful Welsh Grand-Parents (maternal) were psychic, my Grand-Father was a Phrenologist - he read the bumps on people's heads - and my Grand-Mother was a Medium. When they arrived from the valleys, I was so excited. Violet made my childhood magical, her battered white suitcase contained two fairies from the forest - but they were very shy and I was not allowed to peek. As a child you can imagine the overwhelming urge, but I never did.

When her original ivory Ouija board came out, I watched with amazement as my mother and her friends had their questions answered by a spirit through the planchette. On reflection, I can't imagine allowing my children to witness something like this, let alone be present in the house, but that was then.

Sadly, Violet died on Mother's Day when I was 21, but before she left she told me that I would inherit her gift.

Fast forward to the year 2000, living in London, and looking and feeling something that resembled a beached whale, aka six months pregnant. It was the weekly girls get together with some close friends, Sarah had been to see a clairvoyant and was relaying her fore-told fortune. "My grand mother was a psychic” I piped up. “God, you kept that quiet, come on then, try it out on us”? I found myself saying “why not”?

I knew nothing about palms, but as I looked down at each one, pictures started to form in my head. I described what I was seeing, and was met with gasps of disbelief and comments like “I have never told you that before” and “how do you know that”?

I wasn’t sure if I liked this, I had previously miscarried, what if I “saw” something terrible happening to my unborn baby? I played devils advocate and kept telling myself it was a fluke, but unlike the fairies my curiosity had developed over the years. The following night, back in my kitchen, my Argentine au pair and all her friends were chatting.

Explaining what had happened the night before, I experimented on them this time. It was slightly more complicated as Florence was the only one who spoke fluent English, so she translated for me. I am still mastering the English language, so forget Spanish, but for some inexplicable reason I felt compelled to say words with no clue of their meaning. They did understand though, and there was that chorus of gasps again!

Something was definitely up, a week later Emma knocked on my door, waving a piece of paper under my nose. The headline read “Do You Think You Are Psychic”?, below there were a list of questions. Do you think about someone and then they suddenly phone out of the blue? Do you have a premonition about someone or something, and then it happens? Do you instantly know when to trust or not trust someone, and your instinct turns out to be right? “Come to our ten week psychic development course and discover your psychic potential. Coincidence? I now know there is such thing.

Heidi Sawyer was nothing like I expected a psychic teacher to be. There was no a stitch of crushed velvet, and no hooped earrings. I had been promised that despite my fears of getting involved in the Spirit World, all would be fine for me and my unborn child and in fact the baby would love the meditation. And she did, for two hours every Thursday night she seemed totally relaxed and my constant nausea disappeared during the classes.

Right from the start I was able to see auras, which for those of you who don’t know, are our energy field around us, suddenly I felt I was in a constant commercial for Ready Break as I started to look at everyone in a new light - literally!

By week four I had an incredible moment, and I knew at that point, my life was about to change for ever. Upon opening my eyes, after a meditation, I noticed that there were more people, than when we started! Between two of my fellow students, sat the most beautiful black woman, dressed in a rainbow of colours. Her long tunic glowed in oranges, reds and yellows and she wore a large turban on her head to match. This amazing vision projected an incredible smile, I felt nothing but love. To the left, stood an enormous white apparition with less clarity but I believe it was an angel as there was a sense of safety and wisdom surrounding me.

Finally, I had proof that there was life after death.

A Mars a day.....can send you mad.

2007-11-27T05:12:00.000-08:00

According to a good friend who is into all things astrological, Mars is in retrograde (whatever that means). If, like me you are having a challenging time right now and questioning every area of your life, the red planet is totally reponsible.

I don't think there has been one month this year, when the big bad emotional truck hasn't hurtled towards me sending me flying into yet another storm. "Lucky you!" declares Cosmo - our local chrystal shop owner and full time guru. Stunned, I stare at him and ask the obvious "er...... because?". "Because, the universe has given you the opportunity to learn so much and when you come out the otherside you will be better for it!"

OK, so he has point, but non-stop, all year round!? I left his beautiful and deeply energising shop, and thought about what he had said all the way home. What had I learnt, and what am I going to do about it? Once I decided there was no point hiding under the bed, (which is what I do when my 6 year old daughter can't decide what to wear), I realised you can offer help and some people will take it, some people will even take and then spit it right back at you, but it's their stuff and I have to focus on doing what's right for me. The only way to really help people is by example, it was time to get back to what I believed in and not allow emotional vampires to drain me any more.

So, recently I have started to pour my energy again into what I believe in - love, happiness, sucess, and magic. Whilst I have been hurt very badly by some people who meant so much to me, out of the ashes has risen some incredible friends, people who have showed me the most amazing love and understanding and I appreciate them more than I can say.

Yesterday, I started to see a difference in my life, a glimmer of light at the end of the tunnel. Patience does pay off, there is a reason for everything that happens in life. It's time to focus on the good people in our lives and cherish them, the bad don't really exist, they are just there to remind us of who we shouldn't be.

I am now in pursuit of real happiness for myself and my family and friends. I am licking my wounds and moving on and trusting that it will be all wonderful in the end. So to all those who thought you could destroy me, I wish you well with your lives and if you keep on trucking, I won't be on that high way, I'm afraid. More importantly, thank you to those who have been there for me - and you know who you are.

And as for you Mars..................................!

2012 The End of the World?

2007-11-20T05:36:00.000-08:00

Whilst in London last week, I was given a number of publications to review for a radio station. As I drove home, my boot bursting, I relished the thought of indulging in a good book, all destined for the Mind Body and Spirit section of all good book stores, but which one first?

I chose The Reincarnation of Edgar Case by Wynn Free (fabulous name!) and David Wilcock, an inspiring read for those who are looking for answers on the purpose of life, the after-life and beyond. I am struggling to put it down at the moment, especially as I should be ploughing through the infamous mailing list (500 ish), yet it is so thought provoking and leaves me hungry to keep turning the pages.

Edgar Cayce (1877-1945), was regarded as a psychic, philosopher and healer. People came to him in their hundreds to seek his help and guidance. Part of his legacy was complete transcripts of over 1600 readings he had given in the latter part of his life. His son Hugh Lynn Cayce, later founded the Association for Research and Enlightenment (ARE) and the Edgar Cayce Foundation which assists thousands of people to explore and study those transcripts.

Cayce was regarded as "perhaps the greatest psychic that the United States ever produced". He predicted forthcoming events with great accuracy. Amongst those were the First and Second World War, the independence of India and the 1929 stock market crash. Fifteen years prior to the event, he prophesied the creation of the State of Israel. Yet one of his most disturbing fore sights was his concern for "vast geographical upheavals which by the year 1998 will result in the destruction of New York, the disappearance of most of Japan, and a cataclysmic change in Northern Europe".

So far, I understand he led a fairly normal life, he chain smoked, spent too much money and at times was impatient with others around him. As a fellow psychic, I can't tell you what a relief it was to read that bit! However, according to the book he is back amongst us, in the incarnation of David Wilcock. Before you sceptics out there start groaning check out:

http://www.divinecosmos.com/index.php?option=com_content&task=view&id=343&Itemid=70

There is definitely more than a similarity there between the two men,don't you think? Despite his reluctance to this claim, according to the author, Wilcock found it, in the end difficult to disprove and is backed by ARE members. He, like Cayce, has an extraordinary psychic talent.

Personally, I do believe that we reincarnate, and have experienced many past life regressions. We have far too many life lessons to learn, to cram into one life time, although, I think I am packing quite a few in, this life time! The purpose, in my opinion is to eventually understand nothing but unconditional love, and we then move on.

We will get there in the end, and according to the book, the end is sooner than you think, 2012 to be precise. For those of you who have no idea what I am talking about, 2012 is the end of The Mayan Calender and some say the end of the world. Even NASA is predicting the sun will reverse its own magnetic poles during 2012 as result of reaching the end of the current 11-year sunspot cycle. So, something is going on. Just google 2012 and once you have skipped the section on The Olympics you will find a host of theories and information.

Now, before you start walking up down Oxford Street with a sandwich board, let me explain. Most spiritual people believe that there is something extremely significant about this date, but in a positive way. The belief is that the world will end "as we know it". To expand on that, we are already seeing more and more people seeking a spiritual path of consciousness. A number of my clients, for example, would never have dreamt of seeking spiritual advice as little as ten years ago. Therefore, by 2012, this will spiritual quest within most of us will be complete.

With events, such as 9/11 and the fighting that prevails between religions, life becomes a total confusion. It begs the eternal question "why are we here?". I don't have all the answers but I am working on it every day, either through outside knowledge or through my own life experiences.

I feel sure of one thing though, good will overcome evil in the end and during the years running up to 2012 we will see enormous events taking place. Some, will appear positive and some negative but in the end there will be a reason for them all. In my own little world, both those around me and myself are experiencing huge challenges and life changes.

So watch this space in both your personal life and the world around you. Remember karma, the Law of Attraction and the Law of Reflection. Life is always your choice, and even those who may seem to have their eyes firmly shut, will have to open them soon enough. Meanwhile, I am going back to my book!

Helping find Madeleine McCann

2007-11-12T11:35:00.000-08:00

Madeleine McCann has been missing for more than six months now, and as a mother myself, I cannot imagine what it must be like for a parent to try and understand what happened that night and wonder whether she is safe. Our family went on a Mark Warner holiday to Italy 9 years ago. Mike and I dined in the hotel restaurant leaving the children under the watch of the patrolling nannies. Of course, hindsight is a good thing and like most parents, I imagine, I will never leave them again. Yet, as a small child I lived in a very large Old Rectory and the distance between my room and my parents' were was comparable. Being a parent is the hardest job in the world, and no-one is perfect.

As a psychic I have tried to "tune in" to her whereabouts but I choose not to "see" whether she is alive or, god forbid, dead. I believe, if asked, I would simply help locate her.

Last year, one Friday afternoon a client rang me deeply distressed, as her brother had left a suicide note and was now missing. After calming her down, we began working together to find him. I knew we were up against the clock, but if we were quick enough and stayed focussed we would locate him.

Over this distressing and exhausting weekend, I sat with my 'phone clamped to one ear, staring at a map guiding Debbie and her distraught sister across miles of countryside. This was a race against time, as I frantically tried to decipher psychic messages, symbols and words "given" to me. On at least three occasions, I would be drawn to a particular town and just as the girls arrived there, the police would confirm that Andy had withdrawn cash from the town's branch, we missed him by no more than an hour each time.

I had to think laterally, but it was so difficult with Debbie sobbing on the 'phone. I began to see a church, and a golf course over and over again, but it made no sense as we carried on looking. As Saturday night loomed, I made it very clear that under no circumstances were both girls to go to sleep at the same time, as I felt their brother may call. Late that night, Debbie rang and at first her screams were so hysterical I thought we were too late. When she had taken a few deep breaths, she explained that she had been so wracked with tiredness, she had fallen asleep for no more than half an hour. Of course, in that time he had left a message on her mobile saying his last good-byes. I will never forget hearing the chilling message Andy left for his family.

I felt I had failed, but despite this I was determined to continue with the search, praying that it wouldn't all be in vain. The girls were back on the road and this time I felt as if I was in the car with them. I "saw" a hotel by a stretch of water and fir trees. I felt they were very close to something, minutes later Debbie passed a hotel fitting my description, I told them to turn around and go inside and look for him.

As I stayed on the 'phone, I heard her walk into the hotel and ask reception if they recognised the photo' of her brother. The man behind the desk said "no" but I knew we were at the right place, so I insisted she find the manager. She did, and to my relief, I heard him say he did recognise Andy as a guest at the hotel. Debbie and her sister went radio silent for around twenty minutes as they went to search his room; it seemed like an eternity. Finally, they called back with bitter sweet news, his belongings were there, but no sign of Andy.

Moments later there was a call , Andy had been spotted running away from another relative's house just up the road in Stokenchurch. He was alive, but how long for? Both sisters wanted to rush over and find him; I felt this was the wrong thing to do and persuaded them to sit tight. It paid off; their distressed brother returned to the hotel room where the girls finally managed talk him out of harming himself.

Two long days of hell, I was exhausted so I can't imagine what the family were going through, but all worth it. By the way, the fir trees were on all the stationary at the hotel, as it was relevant to it's name. I believe that information I am picking up on has to be thought out laterally. The golf course was my local club Stoke (not that I play), and coupled with the church I was seeing.......... for me it suddenly made sense. That was a good lesson for me.

I desperately want to help find little Maddie, not for the money thanks, or the credit, but because it is deeply frustrating having information and being unable to use it. I have contacted all sorts of media and the police - and of course the family, but keep hitting a brick wall. I have heard that other psychics have been offering their services so it's understandable that I am not getting through.

Again, as a mother I would try anything, but then I am not in their position. However, if someone out there is willing to be my man on the ground and is good at lateral thinking, I am here waiting. I can say that already a number of things I have picked up on tie in with certain events. All these have been logged and dated and sent to a friend in Spain. Ironically, I even have friend, whose mother owns the apartment above the one where Maddie was taken. I feel so close, yet so far away.

A Few Predictions.

2007-11-08T10:48:00.000-08:00

My mentor and gorgeous mate Nick Thorogood suggested I put some predictions on my blog. And since I have nothing else to report as I have spent another day bashing out information on my data base (452) I thought, why not!

So here goes, hopefully this will resonate with the you.

Lauren, your key is by the back door.

Christina, (Chrissy) your mother is sorry that she left you so suddenly but it was her time and your father needs you now more than ever, it's time to heal the rift.

Charlie M, your brother is very sick and will take a long time to get well, but he will get well, keep the faith.

Rowena J, you must be patient and don't give up the studying yet. I know you want to throw in the towel but it will all pay off in the end, I promise.

There is a food company (small around 150 employees) near Worcester. This company is in financial trouble but can be rescued. I feel it may be family run, please stop arguing and pull together it is your only hope.

The J who left Chester to head west yesterday or could have been the day before, you are in total denial and long term this will bring you nothing but karmic pain.

Luca, you will get the job, be patient.

Phew! OK let's see if this means anything to anyone and I will endeavour to put some messages at the end of each of my blogs. So watch this space.

In Memory of Michael

2007-11-06T12:09:00.000-08:00

Having spent the last couple of weeks creating my data base, which is the most tedious yet necessary job in the world, I have neglected my blog! Mike has almost been driven to distraction with my hourly updates on this task. So, as I have reached 350 people thus far ( and only a squillion more to go), I decided to have a break and instead share the rather interesting day I had yesterday with you.

I awoke with the song, Valerie, in my head and after dropping my youngest little angel at school I headed off to Diss to visit a new client. Yvonne was unable to make the journey to my house, so it couldn't have come at a better time, as my cabin fever was in full flow.

I have been trying to live much more in the now recently, so with Kiss FM on full blast, singing along to Amy Winehouse's new cover of .....yup - Valerie, I relished the beautiful Suffolk countryside in Autumn. The colours are just amazing, lit by glorious sunshine. Hooray, a beautiful day in the 'hood!

OK, so there's a but coming! Yvonne had requested that I conducted the reading out of her home, and suggested The Scole Inn, a stone's throw from her house. Two years ago I filmed at the Scole Inn for a programme called Seeing The Dead. A series that has never seen the light of day and is now cluttering the shelves at ITV.

During that time, I was going through the most incredible roller coaster of emotions, deeply unhappy, I was on the edge of cracking up and the only control I had was with my own body, bulimia was my only friend.

I look back at that time and shudder at my state of mind as I tackled work, being a mother, and feeling deeply unloved. Yet somehow, I went into automatic pilot and soldiered on living on hope, spirituality and coffee! So revisiting these haunts (pardon the pun) is tough and cathartic. In the past few months, I have discovered that the only way to erase a painful memory is to go back and relive it in a different way.

Yesterday, I nearly jumped ship and shared with a friend my fears revisiting the haunted location, he simply said you can't let Yvonne down, she needs you. He was right of course, and I knew I just had to be brave. Ignoring my sat nav screaming at me to turn left, I shot past the turning to Yvonne's house and there in front of me stood the imposing building. I stared at it for a minute and then took in a deep breathe and turned the car round and collected my client.

As soon as Yvonne came out of her house I knew it was all going to be alright. This lovely lady suffers from a condition that makes it difficult for her to walk and as I helped her into my car I felt her amazing aura.

So, as we entered the reception of the hotel, instantly I recognised Debbie the manageress who had been one of the "witnesses" on the series. Thank you for the warm welcome Debbie!

I had brought a DVD of the episode with me to show Debbie, and Yvonne and I watched it with her. I haven't watched it for such a long time, I hardly recognised myself which was a good thing! The Scole Inn was occupied by a beautiful spirit named Emma and her lover John. Emma was in love with a man who was not her husband, he later punished her by taking her life.

Debbie was whisked away for a meeting, so Yvonne and I began the reading. Immediately, I felt her terrible loneliness. I picked up on the death of male who was very close to her and there was no doubt in my mind that he was her true soul mate. They had always had each other and then he had left her very suddenly, a matter of weeks ago, leaving Yvonne desperately missing her beloved husband. Michael had many messages for his wife, all, I am pleased to say, made perfect sense to her including his urge to get her writing her first novel. After years in the navy Micheal's passion led him to writing and was a historian of military history, his final book will be coming out next year. He finished it weeks before his death and was thrilled.

As I listened to Yvonne share her precious memories with Michael she explained how she had 13 wonderful years with a man she knew from the moment she met him, was the "one". "How lucky you have been to have had that time with your true soul mate" I commented. Yvonne smiled and said "I know, I was very lucky" It was at that moment, I had a moment!

I suddenly realised that it has taken me two years of hurt and desperation to try to understand why certain events had taken place. Its simple, the universe needed me to realise and embrace feelings of loss and compared to Yvonne I had got off lightly. But, I still knew how her pain felt and this pain can be physical and emotional. It was all relative, I felt I was being relieved of a curse in some way.

I shared stories with my new friend and thanked her for asking me to come. Yvonne is a deeply spiritual person and I admire her greatly. It was privilege to meet her.

Debbie rejoined us and asked if I would like to come and do a talk at the hotel on December 13th. I found myself saying "I would love to!", and am very much looking forward to it. And if that wasn't enough another man approached me and said he had many hotel and pub clients who may be interested too!

Yvonne and I hugged each other goodbye and I smiled all the way home. Funnily enough, when I got back I had an e mail from someone related to that awful period of my life. I knew it was going to be more rubbish and sent it back before I had became tempted to read it.

Oh and by the way, guess what Yvonne's favourite sister is called -Valerie!

Thank you Yvonne for giving me permission to share this story with others and thank you for being you. Thank you Michael too, there is no doubt you planned the whole thing!

On another note.

Yesterday, a friend of mine was "outed" for writing a rather cheeky blog entitiled The Secret Diaries of a TV Controller! Whether he was responsible, or not, I dont know but he did nag me to write a blog and for that I am very grateful as it is immensly helpful, thanks Domxxxxx

2007-10-17T05:42:00.000-07:00

Ever fallen out with someone? I have, many times. I sometimes wonder if I am like marmite, people either like me or hate me, especially in the car park at school! If I sat down and thought about it, and I do that a lot, I think it's probably because I have expected too much from people. My brother once said, that if you expect nothing then you will be pleasantly surprised when something lovely happens. Annoyingly, he's right.

I have understood that life is about intention, and when someone hurts us our first question we ask ourselves is "did they intend to do that". Often its no, but when it's a yes then we have to decide what we are going to do about the situation. We can choose to let people upset us or not, as with most things life is about choice.

Some of us forgive and forget and repair the damage when possible. Again, speaking from experience when one gets one's fingers burnt twice or more, it's perhaps time to accept the lesson and move on. Being a sucker for helping the bird with the broken wing aid I have to remind myself this is their life journey too. Of course, human nature is to take, and yet we forget that it's giving and saying thank you that helps the Law of Karma to flow. Sometime, if you are the giver it all seems so unfair that the taker seems as happy as Larry whilst we feel hurt and used.

However, and here comes the tricky bit for us humans. If we wish bad on someone else it comes back to us three fold, believe me! What's worse is the more spiritual we become, the quicker the karma comes back. But the upside of that is that if you wish happiness and love upon others, including your enemies, the same applies, and it may come from a place you weren't ever expecting.

No one understands more than me, how hard it is to forgive someone for their actions. The hurt, anger and disbelief we go through when we have been honest and kind to a friend or even worse someone we love unconditionally, who then throws back in our faces is unbearable at times.

The road to recovery is a long and painful one, sadly their are no over night quick fixes. And if you have chosen the "easy" option of going back for more of the same, each time you are back in recovery the anger towards oneself increases, as we ask "how could I have been so stupid?". Some well intended friends will tell you that its not your fault, but I am afraid it is. We chose to let our selves get hurt and if we are really honest and listened to our hearts, didn't we know that this was a road to self destruction?

But, there is hope for a recovery and we can heal. And here are a few tips.

Firstly, ask yourself how this person's hurtful behaviour has made me a better human being.

Secondly, give yourself permission to choose to let go of this person and remind yourself daily that you deserve better lovers/friends.

Thirdly, start to do detachment exercises by imagining the person in front of you. Remembering the spiritual lesson they have taught you and imagine cords attaching you together from your hearts. Then visualise a large sword, knife or scissors in your hand and cut the cords. And if you are tempted to do something else with these sharp implements - remember Karma!!! You can practice this meditation as much as you like.

Then start to put your life back together, easier said than done, I know, but we have to start to somewhere. I have talked about affirmations in a previous blog and this is such a good time to use them. Something on the lines of "I am healing from this situation and letting go of my pain" , or "I am surrounded by people who love and appreciate me", and "I forgive this person from their actions". You may not feel it straight away but the universe will give it to you when the time is right.

I believe that although it's necessary to forgive, you can also detach. You can choose to no longer let this person affect you. This is not a karmically bad thing and once you let go of your anger you will find that as if by magic the universe will decided how karma should take place. Whilst, you hold on to seeking justice you block the natural path of cause and effect. Remember, holding on to anger can also make you ill. Disease is dis-ease.

So start by putting on happy music or watching an uplifting film. Surround yourself with people who you know love and care for you.

These people are our biggest teachers.

2007-10-14T08:01:00.000-07:00

As I have mentioned before soul mates come in all guises. I have spent many years reading books on the subject and it has been, for me, rather like being given a very difficult jigsaw puzzle. After discovering my sixth sense I decided to find out more. Why are we here? Why do certain events happen to us? What happens after we die?

In this wonderful world of synchronicity, a good friend of mine gave me a copy of Many Lives, Many Masters by Brian Weiss. In a nut shell, Weiss is a hypnotherapist who tells the story of a patient, who whilst being regressed, slipped back so far she found herself as an Egyptian BC! Weiss gives an honest account of this extraordinary experience, and delves further. Throughout the book his patient recounts numerous past lives, none I might add, glamorous or regal. However, the author becomes curious as to her whereabouts between lives and incredibly , at that point, her voice would change, as if she was channelling messages from the other side. These messages were for me, the first pieces of my puzzle and my picture started emerging. With a thirst for more knowledge, I read his second book Only Love is Real. An enlightening story of a man and woman unknown to each other, discovering they had lived together in previous lives and finding love again in this one through Weiss.

I still have much to learn, I think that will take many more life times, yet I have a greater understanding of the bigger picture. I believe that we do reincarnate and each life is shared with other soul mates. Their purpose is to help each other to learn and grow. Therefore, not all will be "the one", some are far from it. Soul mates are those who have an impact on our lives, good or bad. Of course, that's not to say that amongst those are people we will fall in love with and share incredible happiness and understanding.

From what I have experienced as both a therapist conducting past life regressions and experiencing my own journeys back in time, I am left with no doubt that we all switch roles in each life. Your mother, for example could have been your daughter previously, and your worst enemy could have been the love of your life.

As agonising as it can be, when we are hurt by the actions of others we must recognise that on a soul level they were helping us to learn. I often find through sessions with my clients there seems to be specific lessons through their life that they must accomplish and if they don't recognise it the first time then a pattern emerges as various painful events reoccur. The situations may appear different, including the people involved, yet the message is the same, it may be rejection, self respect, unconditional love, and many more. Have you ever heard a friend say "I want to settle down in a relationship, but every time I fall in love it ends in the same scenario?" Perhaps, they are not getting the message? I have found that once you "get it" and let the universe know, it will not happen again, and the cycle stops. Certain meditations can help too, especially when a marriage has ended or a contract.

But don't despair! The "one" is out there and you can find them if you haven't already and of course I am always happy to help.

If you want to know more about Past Life Regression, Barbara Ford Hammond's book Past Life Tourism is a wonderful insight into the subject.

And if you have been hurt by someone ask yourself this. "How has this person's behaviour towards me helped me to become a better person?"

2007-10-12T12:13:00.000-07:00

Have you ever had that feeling that someone is watching you? It's weird isn't it? How do we know that, even if they are behind us? The other day, I was in a cafe talking to a client and there it was, that sense that someone was staring at me. As I panned the room, still talking, someone, let's just say an angry acquaintance, was leaning against the Cafe Nero counter in the queue. Arms folded, giving me "the evils" as my teenage son would say.

And it happened again today, but this time it was a ghost! Nothing odd about that, bearing in mind I am a medium. Actually, it is nearly seven years since I saw my first fully formed spirit. A moment so incredible, in one instant my fear of dying dissolved as finally I saw proof of life after death.

Halloween is approaching, my favourite time of the year - naturally. Forget the broomsticks and pumpkins. According to many ancient cultures this is a liminal time of year, when spirits make contact with the physical world. Or to put it another way the "veil" is thinner between us and the other side, so if you want to see something paranormal, now is a good time.

I have seen many visitors from the other side but recall two occasions when I have mistaken very solid looking spiritual beings for physical ones. The first was in our house in London. I went to retrieve my daughter's push chair from our dining room (well you didn't expect us to use it for eating did you?), as we were on our way to terrorise the neighbours trick or treating. Conscious of the army of green faced 4 year olds ready to scare the residents of Kirkstall Road, I raced in to the room to retrieve the buggy, when I saw a man casually leaning against a cupboard. Since he was dressed in what looked like 20th century clothes, I presumed he was a father to one of the weapons of mass distraction waiting by the front door. Making some throw away remark, I reversed the pram out and strapped Louisa in and then it dawned on me, " who was that?" Seconds later I walked back in and yes you've guessed it, nobody there!

A year later, we had moved to Suffolk and I am doing the country thing, you know, bringing logs in for the fire, obviously to impress our friends from London for the weekend. I could have sworn Mark was standing in our kitchen by the kettle as I lugged the heavy load through to the fireplace. "If you are making tea I would love one" I yelled as I hurried through. I suppose he could have beeen a member of the Star Ship Enterprise and had beamed himself to the sitting room or I had just been talking to dead people again. Because there was Mark and his wife on the sofa , and there by my feet were the logs as I darted back to the kitchen to see who I had spoken to. Once again, nothing, and they hadn't even made my tea!

Today, sitting in front of laptop laboriously filling in data, out of the corner of my eye I notice someone is watching me and then hiding, but thankfully no "evils". This house is 500 years old, and this is my first All Hallows Eve here. I am hoping my new friend will sit down and tell me all about it soon. He has already snapped a wire on the back of a picture and keeps moving about upstairs, so it's looking promising. Am I mad? Probably, but they are just people who are earth bound in my opinion, and they just want to make contact.

So, if you would like to see something out of this world, ask, stay calm and wait. Get your cameras out and take pictures, most aren't camera shy. Don't be frightened, isn't it wonderful to know that there is more to life than just our day to day lives?

2007-10-11T05:44:00.000-07:00

I have just been giving relationship advice to a vicar! Now, you would think a man of the cloth with a direct line to the big guy upstairs would know the answer to everything, surely? Or is there a clue in the question? Well he is a man!

Perhaps, that's a little unfair, after all, women (me included) are continuously flummoxed as to the key the perfect relationship. Although, I think I know the answers, I sometimes don't listen to that little voice saying "NO"!

Spiritual Law says, that if we believe in the greater power available to us all, then we can have anything we want to make us happy. My clergy friend made one negative statement after another. "I can't find a woman who understands me", "I am lonely", "all women want me to commit"! By saying this, he is affirming it, and the universe will give him exactly what he states. If he changed his affirmations to the possitive "all women understand me", "I am surrounded with friends", "I have found the perfect woman" then he would start to manifest his true desires.

Recently, The Secret a best selling film and DVD has influenced millions to use The Law of Attraction. A guide to cosmic ordering anything you want, it demostrates how we can get that job, soulmate, car etc. But what about the Law of Karma, or in simple terms, being careful for what you wish for? Yes, you can manifest a Ferrari but there is no guarantee that it won't kill you once you are behind the wheel. Equally, you can bring a soulmate into your life, but not all soulmates make you happy. They are there to teach us lessons, and most lessons are learnt through our mistakes.

Perhaps in this materialist world that we live in, we should focus on what we really want - happiness. Leaving the boys upstairs to decide what it is that makes our souls happy. The Law of Attraction simply means that what ever we are, we attract into our lives. So if we want to have happiness we need to be happy people.

My affirmation for today? I am a happy and loving person!.

2007-10-10T05:19:00.000-07:00

So this is my first ever blog! Frankly, there are plenty of other things I should be doing, however, I find myself so bemused and frustrated right now and I am hoping this will be cathartic. Having just had a visit from my dear friend and author Barbara Ford-Hammond, we met up to plan our new day courses. Surfing the Internet for research I am greeted by some of the most hideous shades of purple, ear piercing music and angel icons on offer to entice lost souls on to life changing courses.Is it any wonder that the few "normal" holistic practitioners out there all get tarred with the same bonkers brush?

Since discovering there was more to life than just the usual day to day drudgery I have tried to keep my practice as far away as possible from the sitting under the triangle, knitting yogurt brigade for that very reason. "Gosh, you don't look like a psychic, you look like the mother who does the school run!" informed one of my clients on arrival. I didn't know psychics didn't do a typical school run, perhaps they travel on broomsticks or cast a spell, and with one puff of green smoke their little darlings are safely sitting at their desks ready for the first lesson! I must have missed that chapter in Mystic for Beginners. But then again, why would I want to do that? I would miss out on my daily dose of the play ground mafia. Brand spanking new Land Rover keys clutched tightly in their hand, intently listening to the latest gossip (it's parents in the big school who swing this week, by the way) whilst little Archie is freezing to death in his corduroy shorts wanting to go to class, about to get knocked down by another four wheel drive about to reverse into him.

It's like pushing water up a hill sometimes trying convince others that there is so much more to life. Yet, as the Buddhists would say "some people wouldn't have it any other way", in other words, there are those who are happy, being unhappy! Not me, I know that there is something amazing and magical within us and all around us and we can all find it. With some tuning in, meditation, affirmations and an open mind you can change your life.